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That might be it for me too Swift. I feel like in someways this coping mechanism is a super power! We just have to learn the proper time and place to use it. Lol My T I had who told me about curling into a ball like i was 4 also told me that because I learned to dissociate during trauma I was...

Thanks guys. No wonder they call it complex! Geesh...shew.

Well lets just say....it's been going on a while. I guess with another T...I curled up in a ball in a corner and acted like I was about 4...Embarrassing? I had thought it might be a part thing...then my doctor didn't believe DID is a real dx just a severe form of ptsd...then another T started...

A family member made a comment to me about multiple personality disorder...when I asked her if she thought I had it or something..she just looked at me funny....so I told my Therapist about it...and she said, " Sometimes you do present differently in therapy sessions." I was like what...

Yes. I have pretty bad ptsd..but a thyroid problem too. My medical doctor is treating it physically..but... My therapist thinks the nodule might be triggering to me also because I describe it as feeling like someone is constantly choking me...and feel like I am in a constant flight state..with...

My therapist is reffering me to a trained professional therapist certified in somatic herapy because a thyroid nodule has me in a constant flight mode. I am curious as to how this works?

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My first memory is when my Father was stationed in Germany too! Riding in a wagon in Germany...bumpy as all get out! My Mom pulled it. A little red one.

Yep. I have ptsd, but my thyroid messes up my mood too!

Yesterday! Momma Mia! I had no idea how hilarious that movie/musical is at times.

So true and you made me laugh! Thanks.

I've been volunteering at a school on very part time basis. I am on disability. Today the director of the school was cracking jokes about being on disability. Yesterday an intake worker at a clinic gave me a face about the amount of hospitalizations I have had. First of all.. I do not want...

I am not okay tonight, but I chose to live. I know my moments will come back to me when I can smile and laugh again freely. My heart hurts, my body is tired, my mind is racing, and my feelings are so very low. I know it's "temporary", but man this sucks.

Thanks. I was a bit emotional after typing this up. But I think it was worth it. That was bursting to come out.

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hithere. I think that's exactly what this is.

He hurt you. He hurt you bad. The screams you made. The tears you cried. Then your Mom came storming in to hear the pain that you had faced. It was silenced with a word you had never heard before. Again it happened! Why would she let him be in the bathroom with 4 year old me?! I step in to save...

Yes Belinda ..kind of like that.

Might be

I am riding a roller coaster tomorrow!

Actually my therapist says it is more of an on your own tool. I just hadn't gotten creative with it or even been too fragmented to try/understand it up to this point. I am going to discuss the narrative with her though. I will let you know how it goes.

Getting ready to change the narratives of my flash backs. The idea? Adult me goes back in time to fix mistakes that were made at the time. I.E. When the detectives ask questions we don't go mute anymore...we use our voice....anyone done something like this in therapy before? I hope it works...

Yes... Freida I have wondered about that too. I feel like I am at a place of readiness though and that it would help me. I will probably be running the idea by my therapist first though.

Swift, I am so relieved to know that I am not alone in my thought process here. Thank you!

I don't know where to post and I am going to name some traumatic memories in here. My childhood sexual abuser is deceased. Parts of me do not grasp this! I have to remind myself over and over. . . I am feeling a great deal of anger about the abuse. I do not know what it will accomplish, but I...