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    Confused; i.e. one friend dies earlier this week, the other friend poised to exploit the situation = feeling friendless.

    Sorry - I'll try to keep this short... A touch angry, but mostly embarrassed given what would appear my appalling lack of discrimination with regards to the people I let into my life. One estranged friend died earlier this week after largely losing control of his life and failing utterly with...
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    Muddled feelings in relation to outreach of a sister in need...

    Greetings and I'll try to be brief even as I so often fail in this regard... A certain ambivalence felt in relation to outreach made in my direction from a sister who for long has regarded me as essentially untouchable. I'm a little at sea at present, 'happy' that 'relations' have been...
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    Even for not being a Trekkie, feeling much like the Borg right about now...

    Just mulling things, feeling the need to write then... Recently I'd caught up with someone I vaguely knew - someone else thought oriented to reading, to study, to something akin to independent scholarship or self-styled intellectual pursuits. Given my isolation, perhaps I hoped for too much in...
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    Rather miserable family health profile/history, not at all sure I wish to experience a 'natural' end...

    Hello - I'll try to keep this short even as I typically drone... As of late it's been difficult to see forward to the extent of how many, or more pointedly, how few years remain of my life. I'm closing in on my fiftieth year, while in a physical sense and if seen on the street one wouldn't...
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    Other I've been recently diagnosed as suffering from schizoid personality disorder.[

    Greetings, Though maybe applicable only to myself, I've been recently diagnosed as suffering from Schizoid Personality Disorder. At the very least the diagnosis affords me material to mull online - especially materials that relate to cause. Understand that Schizophrenia and SPD are not the...
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    Processing News From An Old Workplace, Mulling Matters...

    Greetings and thanks for reading this, Mixed feelings of regret, resignation, remorse - and lingering feelings of professional defectiveness too. News just received that a work role that I far from perfectly filled just claimed another causality as this person too was fired. I don't want some...
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    A Bit Impaired At Present...

    Hello, Fatigued - yes, fatigued. I'm in the longstanding habit of affording words of encouragement to an exceedingly tiny base of friends that I wish might find it within themselves to reciprocate in detail when I most need it. People likely register the depth of the depression I feel, are...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Hello to the reader, I don't know what to do. Is it cruel and uncompromising of me to mentally process the question of a therapist who would pose the standard "...do you really want to change?" much as I would the nonprofessional "SNAP OUT OF IT!" intervention strategy employed by various...
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    An Idea Equating To Informed Self-care In Moments Of Duress...

    Hello, I'm largely alone with my Complex P.T.S.D. rooted mostly emotional isolation and abuse legacies difficult to contain. I can however seek materials in the form of books and articles regarding underlying issues, and be so-doing, endeavor in the direction of reasoned and informed...
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    Power Imbalances, Traumatic Sexualization, Arrested Development?

    Hello, I'm not sure what I will articulate here can or will be construed as outright abuse, but I have to try in measure to articulate what atypical legacies I live with and perceive the world through. Some of this will read like an art house film script, and nothing - nothing I read seems to...
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    Southeastern Michigan, Searching For Correspondence Regarding C-ptsd

    Greetings, I imagine I'm looking for correspondence regarding materials read, coping mechanisms devised, and solace short of overwhelming myself and others for so relating. I've worked as an academic librarian, and while I've gathered much in the way of very fine materials and titles to...
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    Sufferer Hi: Childhood Emotional Trauma/workplace Bullying

    Hello, I'm male, and 43 years of age as this message is being posted. In long possession of a Complex P.T.S.D. diagnosis, although not at all certain how to compress so much into so little space. I have no real desire to expose others to secondary stress for providing analogous recital of...
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