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    Poll Has PTSD Caused You To Attempt Suicide?

    I have suicidal thoughts often, first tried to kill myself by hanging when I was nine. I have since tried pills, risk taking behavior (including walking in the middle of the highway at night and jumping off the side of Castle Hill) I've attempted overdose with anti-histamine's, I self injure...
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    Mothers and Memories

    *hugs* Joyfull tightly. I am glad that you don't feel so alone after hearing my memory *hugs* cass
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    Losing My Legs

    *nods* sounds like what I do with one of my guided deep relaxation cd's. It pretty much makes me work through each part of my body, assessing how it feels then releasing the tension from it. It works if I can calm myself enough to be able to focus on me the physical instead of me the mental.
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    Losing My Legs

    I haven't no. I've been having trouble finding therapists etc that I 'connect' with and are affordable. What exactly is bio feedback?
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    Why Can't I Tell My Therapist?

    It wasn't your fault honey... Losing a child is traumatic- which means that yes, it could be contributing to your PTSD. Perhaps a part of yo doesn't want to admit to yourself your (percieved) failure. Many women, after a stillbirth blame themselves, they carry guilt for the life that was...
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    Losing My Legs

    oh yeah they aren't just in my legs *rolls eye* I've actually noticed that they hit at the end of the week- usually day 4 of my work week *sigh* meh, they are doing it again today, but then I've been wound up since monday, only coming down briefly for breathers. (wonders how many notes she...
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    Shocked: Wow, Real Eye Opener Being On Here...

    Heh, welcome to the joys of PTSD. I love the whole 'you have your whole life. . . you're a smart girl' LOL the nurses at work keep trying to get me to go back to Uni till I explain about my PTSD. They are understanding once they know at least.
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    Losing My Legs

    Not literally but *sigh* I think its a panic thing- my muscles tremble and I seem to lose all strength in my legs. I feel like I've been running or swimming (you know that jelly legs feeling you get after swimming too long?). I guess its just an anxiety thing since I get the 'usual'...
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    What To Never Say To A Ptsd Sufferer

    Why didn't you tell anyone (from my mum) oh yeah, thats right, I tried to tell you when I was thirteen after being my brothers f*ck toy for five years. You didn't believe me and it went on for another five. Can't you just stop? You can if you want to. (again from my parents in regards to SI)...
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    Mothers and Memories

    *hugs* void back. It just hurts to think that she continually chose them over me. and I'm sitting here crying once again. I hate feeing broken, but I'm in pieces and shards, hollow but so full of anxious anger (and I'm babbling again)
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    Cutting Off Family

    and wow I hadn't meant to write an essay O.o
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    Cutting Off Family

    I see my parents maybe once a month, if that. basically a touch base thing. I talk on the phone with my mum once a fortnight, if that, and email occasionally, mainly joke emails etc. My mum and my relationship is hard to explian, or not so hard. I was never good enough, always being told...
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    DID Question about did

    I know I disassociate, but I don't know how I act when I do. I don't know about DID though.
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    Coping With Adrenalin Overload

    Oh boy *hugs* When I get that wound up I usually SI or end up in at the ED- and they sedate me and send me home. Not helpful in the least I know. *hugs* I usually climb under a blanket, or make a cubby out of the blanket and the lounge, or hide between the bed and the wall. . . . . or under...
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    Mothers and Memories

    Got caught in a memory today- not so much a flashback as a very vivid memory. Then again, it may be classed as a flashback- at least in the sense that I had sounds, textures and the same feelings as I had on the day. I've written it in first person, just trying to work it out of my system...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    Saychelle- we are not damaged goods. We are survivors. Don't let anyone tell you differently. We may have been hurt, abused, raped and at one point broken, but we are not damaged. We are individual unique artworks. So what if we are a little rough around the edges, or react to things...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    0100 and I still can't sleep. Just *meh* stressed from work, yet another care manager left- means we get to go through the stress of up in the air rosters again as well as a new care manager. On top of this, the lease on our house has a month left and me and L are going to move- if we can...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    It was one of them never ending nights at work tonight. Eight hours on my feet and no time for breaks. Two residents fell, one was sent to hospital with a suspected broken hip (at least I didn't get all shaky/anxious/panicky till after) the other lady was fine- just a bit shaken. On top of...
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    Help...I Gave Myself A "Sex Change"

    *erm* yeah, I sort of need a TMI warning :blush: is it bad I don't remember typing that *coff* and if I could edit to make it less informative, I would
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    My roster at work has been cut down by almost twenty hours. Not a happy camper- just one more thing to stress about. Hopefully its just because they are going to train me for kitchen stuff and I'll go back to a more fleshed out roster next fortnight. *grumbles* and grrs.
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    Help...I Gave Myself A "Sex Change"

    5 Heh, I open doors for myself- and others- cos that way I can keep my back away from people. 4 I don't take drinks from strange men/people, nor do I let people pay for my food (that is if I can eat in public) 3 Moodswings ain't the worst of menstruating- its the cramps, back ache, migraines...
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    Help...I Gave Myself A "Sex Change"

    HEh I changed my mind, I wanna be MALE No cramps,. . . well I would say no mood swings. . . . . only that ain't true. . . . but the cramps. . . . .
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    She Returnethes. . . . . Again

    Hey Anthony- yeah, finally gave up on the catt team then fell in with a mentall health nurse who started at my local GP- he doesn't claim to be an expert but is planning on helping me get help without me spending all my paycheck on it (or putting me and L in dept). Marlene, missed you too honey.
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    She Returnethes. . . . . Again

    Huuugs and lands in a big pile of snuggles. Meh, too exhausted to write at the moment. RL is going ok though, aside from the PTSD stuff. Still with L, still working (although not as much- and then even that will depend on my *grumbles* employee evaluations) Isn;t it strange that when my...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    Started deep relaxation techniques before sleep last night for the first time. It actually worked (yeah, I can act surprised) I slept almost ten hours (straight through, no nightmares, nothing). IT has been years since I have slept without waking up in a panic. I just *wows* Today however-...
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