I tend to dissociate in stores and big stores are almost a guarantee.
You're not being selfish. Don't worry.
Your T should teach you some grounding techniques pronto. Don't be afraid to ask. It takes practise and so there's no time like the present to begin.
Grounding is basically about...
Immediately on the heels of yawning again I developed TMJ disorder, maybe in part from yawning really big yawns. That sucked. Have kind of got the TMJD under control (mostly). But still can't do those enormous yawns I got to enjoy for about a week. I know, woe me.
I HATE that I don't feel safe enough to hike alone anymore. The woods, the wilderness, the outdoors are NOT always safe, and once that illusion is shattered, it ain't ever coming back—at least for me, I fear. This is one of my most bitter realities. :cry:
The science is beginning to reveal epigenetic changes. A few papers here:
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If you're in the US (and maybe elsewhere?), meetup.com is an easy way to get started. It's where other likemindeds are arranging to meet up over shared interests—everything from hiking to astronomy to book clubs to PTSD groups.
Ok this may be WAY out of line of me, and I apologize if so, but have you investigated your own trauma story?
And then you say that and I find myself wondering about the rage, abandonment issues, pushing people away, etc... sounds kind of PTSD-like to me. Just sayin'. :cautious:
On the other...
I guess I'm just quoting my T who says PTSD doesn't stay the same it gets better or it gets worse. The getting worse, in her mind, means you don't treat it adequately. Maybe she's referring to CPTSD. Or maybe PTSD only goes into remission until next the trigger kicks it into overdrive. I know...
Here's a quick quote re some of the emerging science that PTSD can be contagious and/or inherited [from van der Kolk MD, Bessel (2014-09-25). The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma (Kindle Locations 2208-2214). Penguin Group US. Kindle Edition]:
"In practice it...
Sorry to hear about the intense suicidal ideation. I've been through times where it's just a relief to think about suicide rather than my real life. But, truly, people would be absolutely shattered by your loss for the rest of their lives.
My PTSD journey (so far) has involved letting go of who...
PTSD will get better eventually, you don't need to do anything about it.
PTSD isn't contagious.
PTSD isn't inherited.
If you toughen up, you'll get over it.
Not sure if this is relevant or not, but since I've been doing EMDR therapy for about 14mos now, some of my pain has basically gone away. In fact a surgery I was scheduled to have (and NEEDED), I would not even consider having now because the pain has fallen to manageable levels without meds...
I'm kind of excited to find myself letting out lazy, satisfying, *almost* relaxed yawns at all times of the day in the past week. At first I was like: what is that weird thing that's happening to me?
But then I found myself enjoying it because yawning is really a fantastic bodily sensation—if...
I know for me @Wastinglight, i really don't know what I need or want, at least in realtime. I learned long ago that it felt better to not have any needs and wants than to have them unmet. That was/is intolerable. Underneath though I was/am boiling, only i don't know that in realtime either. Or...
Hello @Nothing, I'm sorry to hear of your frightening, horrible day. It sounds genuinely terrifying, the fear you were in for your beloved son.
I don't have children so I can't comment on how to cope. But I just wanted to say that I admire you for coming back from that ghastly place you went...
So sorry to hear you're feeling like crap @Solara. Those feelings all suck. I hope a big, deep sleep washes them back out to sea.
Meanwhile, you're not pathetic. We're social animals and need support from others of our kind, no matter how we fight it. I hope all these messages of support help...
I think my destiny is a permanent membership in the FA club. Relationships for me are too confusing, volatile, bandwidth consuming, and ultimately heartbreaking. I wish I had a partner. Meanwhile I eagerly await the robot versions.
Plus it helps that meds have more or less neutered me.
I really relate to your story @redstone. I relate to your questions too.
I've been doing EMDR for past 15 months. My T says I don't need to remember everything that happened to me, that I may not even be able to remember everything that happened to me. What I can do (she says) is get the...
Thanks @Airedale 48. I wonder if the nanny temperament is stronger in a female dog than a male? Do you get to choose gender? I have no idea how this works, or if I'd ever even be eligible for a service dog. Ideally I'd like one that helps me feel safe enough to leave the house more often...