Hello! Mods please place this in the correct category as I don't know where to put it. Any who I have a really hard time opening up to anyone including my husband, and I want to change that. I was talking to my therapist and we thought a good ice breaker starting point would be to give him some...
So my therapist gave us the option of staying with video therapy or going to in person therapy. She will only see in person people one day a week and will be doing video the other three days of the week. I personally can't get anything done over video therapy and I have told her this many...
So I can't help think that these two are related in someway. Monday night I went for a run on a city street by myself. I was called out by a guy sitting on his front porch. He said hey girl you are looking hot tonight, and then said what no response back? I just ran passed and tried not to...
I'm sure many have heard in the news of the disappearance of Jayme Closs. She escaped her kidnapper after 88 days in a cabin an hour away from her home. I live in Wisconsin and the kidnapping happened about 3 hours away from me. I am a SA survivor and I am really struggling with the news. I...
So I have been go go go for the past couple years with going to school part time and working full time. I left my job of 12.5 years this last Friday. I don't start my new job until December 27th. Its only day three and I'm already anxious because I can't keep myself busy. I've been cleaning on...
For the past 2 1/2 years I've been going to school part time while working full time. I decided to put an application in at a local hospital. I heard back today after the interview process and I accepted the position. The best part was I got to job shadow and meet the people I would be working...
My T told me a couple weeks ago that I need to be better about my self care. I wasn't in a good mood and everything was getting to me. The past couple weeks I have really focused on my self care. I've been running, coloring, hanging out with friends and today I got a massage. I also decided...
My therapist and I agree that I have PTSD and we briefly touched on dissociation. I was wondering if I had DID but didn't come out and directly ask her. She asked me how many parts I had or if I had known about more parts I wasn't telling her about. I know I have little Katie, teenager Katie...
I have been on Prozac for three years nothing has changed. Lately I've been feeling off. Last week was really bad anxiety wise as I had a lot on my plate. I went from school to work to out with friends and literally didn't have a rest day in like 2 weeks. I thought ok I'm doing a lot makes since...
I do a type of therapy called brainspotting. It's where I think of a time something triggering happend and my body works through it while I stare at a triggering spot. So while I work through my thoughts sometimes they trigger flashbacks sometimes I can tell fully what's going on in the...
So I'm trying to go to school part time on Saturday's and work 40 hours a week. My weekends since the beginning of the year have been go to school Saturday morning come home take a nap. Start cleaning the house and go to bed. Sundays I leave for house cleaning and homework. Then I'm back to work...
Yesterday I decided at lunch time while eating dairy queen(fast food) for lunch that I was going to do a 10 mile run last night. It was the perfect temperature for a run. 70 degrees and cloudy. My knee has been hurting so I've been nervous to try longer distances lately. My knee held up and the...
I was sexual abused when I was 7 years old. I am currently in therapy trying to process through everything. Last night I had a nightmare where I was my current age 31 and there was an adult girl who was trying to take advantage of me. I kept trying to lock the door but she was stronger than...
I had therapy yesterday. Little me came out. I do brainspotting with my therapist. Little me was very upset and in the past T has helped by squeezing my hand to ground me. It helps a lot I won't deny that. I am a sexual abuse survivor so we are trying to incorporate being touched into my...
I struggle with being useless after therapy. I come home after every therapy session and lay in bed so exhausted. There are things that need to get done like my new summer class starts tonight online. I should really be looking at stuff I need to get done by Saturday. Instead I'm laying in bed...
So my therapist wants me to start doing power poses for a minute a day to help boost my confidence like superwoman pose and practice not being so scrunched up. I felt absolutely ridiculous trying to attempt them in her office. I am not a very outgoing person and I like to stay hidden so it's...
I have a certain class in which I have to do check offs with the instructor. Basically I perform a skill and she tells me if I pass or not. I can perform these skills on my classmates just fine. However when it's time to perform these skills for her I completely shut down and start shaking...
So I've been going back to school part time and online a little over a year now and I finally got to the point of telling my current boss I'm going back to school today. It's been a very hard decision to make as I've always wanted to be a drafter and I actually am very good at my job. What I...
For those who are doing parts work have you communicated with more than one part at a time? I have a 7 year old Katie part and a teenager Katie part. My therapist suggested we try and work with both of them at the same time. I can usually only notice one at a time and im afraid if I get both...
So Im working on si and sexual abuse in therapy. My therapist has told me she has a roommate. We have discussed incorporating touch into my therapy as I'm afraid of it. I'm 99.99 percent sure my therapist is a lesbian but I have never asked. I don't have any issues with this and have friends...
So a couple weeks ago I admitted that there has been twice in my life that I considered suicide in therapy. They both are having to do with encountering big changes in my life and not having a support system or learning the proper ways to cope. If you looked at me from the outside you would...
I have been taking Fluoxetine for a couple of years along with Buspar three times a day. I had a hip injury in April and was not exercising very much until August. I was put on vitamin D because I had a deficiency and started taking calcium. I used to run around 20 miles a week and now it has...
Yesterday I had a session with T. I was spiraling through memories from my childhood. I knew I was dissociating so I put my head down in hopes to stop the memories. I just curled up in a ball and attempted to cry but nothing came out. I hate when I can't feel my feelings and am blocking...
I have been having a really hard time at work lately dealing with one of my bosses. He has a very controlling and bullying personality. Everyone is scared of him at work. Lately he has been really picking apart everything I do. Yesterday I emailed our engineer and called her office and she...
About a week ago I saw a post on here about attachment issues. I know I have them and I greatly been avoiding speaking about them. So last week I took the plunge and wrote an e-mail to my therapist about being afraid to trust and being afraid of the end of therapy. Another thing I wrote about...