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    Full Time Work

    After many years of casual and part-time work, I have finally gotten to the point where I am capable of full-time work. I have had to put a lot of management tools and self-care tools in place to do this, but I have now been in full-time work for three weeks, and doing OK. My employers know...
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    Photography And Ptsd

    I have recently bought a fancy DSLR. the reason for this is that I was finding my little compact camera just didn't cut it for the images i wanted. I take my camera everywhere I can these days, and I have found a very deep love for photography. Anyway, I was recently reflecting on my...
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    I Am Not A Victim!

    This is a bit of a rant, here.... I'm sick and tired of being placed in the victim basket. My therapist the other day told me that there is no shame in being a victim. Well, yes there is no shame in being a victim, but that doesn't mean I have to act like a victim, which is what she was getting...
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    Jagged Angel's Introduction

    Hi all. Really glad to have this forum up and running. I was sexually abused as a child (only recently remembered...) and have been sexually abused, assaulted and raped as an adult. It's still very difficult to say those things.
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    Do We Remember Trauma From Very Early Childhood?

    I've been reading a few personal stories here, where people have said things about their trauma starting 'in the womb' or they had a traumatic birth. Now, I'm not disputing that this happens, what I want to know is: is it possible to remember these things? Does a trauma in the womb or at birth...
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    Recovery Of Memories

    I have spent the last couple of days in a haze. I have recovered memories of being sexually abused whilst at primary school by a school employee. I did think that maybe it was wrong, that I was imagining things for some weird reason (the brain does strange things), but I recalled that one of my...
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    I Keep Seeing Myself Dead

    As far as I know, I am not currently suicidal, but I keep seeing myself dead in places. I look down a staircase, and I can 'see' my dead body at the bottom broken and bleeding. A truck passes me on the road, and I can 'see' the car, all twisted and my dead body in there crunched by the truck. I...
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    Going To United States Next Week, Anyone Want To Meet?

    Hi, I'm off on a trip to the US next week. I will be in San Francisco from the 7th to the 11th, and Orlando from the 11th to the 19th. The San Fran leg is just for fun, and the Orlando leg is for a conference (I'm presenting at a Harry Potter conference). Anyway, does anyone live in either of...
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    Dear People Who Tried To Add Me As A Friend On Facebook

    I've been having some trouble with my Jagged Angel Facebook page lately, and when I got online to accept all of your friendship requests, the sodding thing wiped them all, and I couldn't get them back. :mad: After some fussing and fighting with the Facebook people, I think we have the problem...
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    New Members To The Forum

    I have no idea where to put this thread, so please move it if I've stuffed up and put it in the wrong place. I was reading the Introductions this morning, and it struck me that I really didn't want to see the new members on here ever again. Now, I'm not talking about not liking them, it was...
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    Wondering About Florida

    It looks like I am going to Orlando Florida for a conference in July this year. I have travelled in the US before, but I have never been to Florida. I am planning on arriving in Orlando a few days before the conference to take in the sights and have a look around. Does anyone have...
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    Academic Achievement!

    I am feeling very proud of myself. I have just finished my honours year at university and have achieved first class honours! Last year, I was mentally unable to do honours year, and had to take a leave of absence, and this year has been very difficult (albeit not as difficult as last year...
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    Poll Do You Feel PTSD-Related Guilt?

    I know this appears like an odd question, but I do not feel guilt, and I am wondering if there are other people who do not feel guilt that is related to their PTSD. I read here on the forum, and in the PTSD books that guilt is a symptom of PTSD, however I more frequently feel nothing, and...
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    Confused About Complex Trauma

    I have read the article here on the forum about Complex PTSD, and things from a few books from the library about it, and I am confused. They all say that Complex PTSD comes from prolonged/constant trauma, abuse etc., but then they only refer to people who were abused as children and how to treat...
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    I Have A New Therapist And I'm Frightened

    I have moved towns and have had to change therapists. I will be seeing the new person next week, and I am frightened about going. I (like a lot of people here) get tired of, and triggered badly by, the telling of my story to a new person. I am worried that this new person is not going to be...
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    Going Out In Public Success

    Here I am, sitting at a computer at the library of my university. There are people everywhere, and I have my back to some of them. I feel very anxious, but I know that campus security can see every inch of this area, as they have the camera set up to show on a tv screen just to my left. This...
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    Does Music Help You?

    I find that when I listen to music, I am calmer than if I, say, watch TV. Naturally it depends on the music - I don't listen to things like Death Metal, or Speed Metal as I have synaesthesia and 'see' the music so really heavy and violent music bothers me. I like most other kinds of music...
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    Trauma Diaries

    I have spent the last couple of hours reading some of the trauma diaries. I have to say that there are many brave people out there, because the diaries are a very open healing tool. I guess I see you all as being brave because the diary is something I cannot face just yet. I started to write...
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    Finally Opening Up

    Hi, I have suffered from PTSD for the past 20 years, and only started treatment for it last year. I am getting better, which is great! However, I feel as though many people in my life don't 'get it', they seem to think it is something that happened recently and it will go away soon...
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