I am curious about the prognosis and developmental impact of being exposed to extremes of human depravity at a young age. In my last therapy appointment we touched base on the fact that I wound up in the hospital after losing my grip on reality and entering a state of psychosis. I was...
For when you need an extra laugh (which is always, IMO). You can embed videos from most websites by clicking on the media button beside the quotation mark and it will let you know which sites are supported as well. I'll start off... (by the way, you can post about five videos before they stop...
Hi there, I'm one of those people who struggle to accurately describe my traumatic experience and I think having someone ask me specific questions about it would help me to verbalize it. Can you do this?
Hi, @Dr. Catalyst , recently I've come to the conclusion that I may have Dissociative Identity Disorder based on several repressed memories that have come to the surface. Most of my childhood is a blank and people often call me by the wrong name, or say they know me from places I haven't been...
Hey Doc, my husband was in the military for 22 years and was just given his benefits decision letter a few months ago. It says he's 70% disabled but that he's not eligible to receive both retirement and disability. Yet on the VA website it says any rating over 50% would qualify for both forms of...
It seems silly to say basic things like "I wouldn't hit my kid for eating garbage off the ground because I failed to feed them," but y'know. I wouldn't. This seems like an interesting exercise. As not necessarily what you think your parents could have done better, but what you would do, if faced...
If there's one thing that I prayed to see happen during my lifetime, it's the legitimization of dextromethorphan (DXM) as a life-saving drug used to treat PTSD and depression. While it currently is only approved by the FDA for Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), I have been self-treating with 120mg...
This one's been in my drafts for a long f*cking time. Mostly because to speak of these things requires definition && it is challenging to come up with an overtly scientific explanation of what exactly these things are. Yet it is apparent all over the world and in a variety of situations and...
I experience it like a days-long, literal hours-long panic attack. It is not "just" anxiety, it is paralyzing and I hyperventilate && feel lightheaded and my throat closes up. My heart rate and BP are elevated. I have chest pains. I think I'm having a heart attack && dying and that feeds into...
When I was a teenager (14) I was diagnosed with inhibited RAD (now just RAD in the DSM-5). I was trafficked into armed violence and sex slavery at 8 until I was almost 13. I operated firearms and hurt people but my RAD was caused in infancy as my mother had post-partum depression until I was 6-7...
What it is. What it isn't. [*1] The legal definition. Is there ever a point at which torture is justified? [*2] The colloquial definition. I was tortured. The legal definition of torture is as follows:
Some legal definitions push that torture must occur "under the color of the law." What does...
Because that's a fun subject, right? Snorf. And on the merry-go-round we go.
I've been slowly plonking away all this PTSD shtuff, and I've gotten pretty good at it over the years! I have some emotional responses now. They're genuine. I feel some actual feelings and it's totally bananas because...
my new T and i have figured out that when im having issues making me do like, 'grounding exercises' only exacerbates my symptoms & makes things 100x worse. i cant deal with living inside my body or 'noticing my body reactions' or w/e. i cant stand ppl telling me what to do. 'oh name 5 things in...
so idk i just need to vent about this
anyway, in the past..................
3 months perhaps, 4 at most
ive lost over 30 lbs
i weigh less than 100 lbs
eating feels like the hugest chore known to mankind
food does not have any taste, its literally like eating sawdust
i take a vitamin and try to...
Anthony's "Stress Cup" explanation is spot on for what occurs with me on a daily basis. I go to school full time, and I work full time. I have my own place. It takes nothing for me to go from 0 to 200. In my head we replace the cup with a speedometer. Everyone else's speedometer starts at zero...
i like that prefix. just "sufferer." you know? nice.
i'm L, lurked a bit, now i'm here.
forgive me if i f*ck up (forgive me father, for i have f*cked up? maybe.) i'm on the autistic spectrum. lots of diagnosis going on. ptsd scares me most.
i swear a lot too. i'm sorry. ish.
raining like...