I'd like to think I have a pre truama self but I do not. That is what I continue to work on every day little by little. Even if it just means taking care of yourself like having a shower or planning something with friends
I'm sorry you had that happen to you. I'm glad you can love your dog in a good way. Good for you. It's not easy to break the cycle. Thank you for sharing. Stay strong
Basically I was just wondering if anyone else felt this way. I have CPTSD and I was abused off and on by my mother probably hundreds of times. I was her toy while she used and abused me. Sometimes it was for gifts and things as a kid. As I got older she was the bread winner of the family and...
I did the exact same thing I had a blanket that was more of a rope and I sucked my thumb until 13 and I sometimes just cover my mouth with my blankets in bed it's quite comfortable and comforting
so much yes! I know exactly how you feel. It's a cycle sometimes
Keep doing positive things for you. I bet you look beautiful too! The negative thoughts are there as a survival mechanism if you think of it that way sometimes they are easier to deal with. Deep breaths and stay strong
I printed out some cognitive worksheets at work and do them when I feel super stressed. I find writing helps me get organized
Or simple replying to these fourms makes me feel less alone and stressed.
I'm so sorry that this happened to you. None of us deserve anything that was done to us. But you know a little paranoia in my opinion is healthy. Someone violated your trust (your abuser) and therefore anyone can break it. It's hard to realize. I think most people know or think that they know...
I feel you on this. Sometimes going outside in spring/summer is sensory overload for me. It's just too much light and colors and sound. I think I like the quiet because it means calm to me. If I hear loud noises (like people talking loudly or yelling) I get upset and need to get away because...
With PTSD we know the awful parts of humans and the world. I have similar triggers. You need to tell yourself where you are in that moment. And that it's okay for her to scream because she is not in danger. Of course that's easier said then done. But grounding is excellent for coming back into...
Okay so your mother is pyscho plain and simple. I know what that's like. If anything she enabled you with this disease and did nothing to help or show concern. This is not normal caring behavior. Cut off all contact and leave her alone forever. But. That's just my suggestion. She sounds...
I have this naturally blonde/brown hair and I absolutely hate it. So as soon as I see my roots I dye and cut my hair myself or I go somewhere to get it done. My natural hair reminds me too much of my abuser my mother.
I would say yes. There's no right or wrong way to dissociate if you think you are then you probably are. Everyone is different it's litterally about your mind trying to protect itself. So it can be different.
I know exactly how you feel. Half the time when someone says I'm pretty or they like my outfit I'm bracing from them to hit me or smack me or worse. I think it's because as a kid I was used and abused by my mother and I use that term loosely. Anyways. I think we expect these things to happen...
I would try and get him into therapy right away and maybe medication if he's willing to help with the emotions. You are such a wonderful person for loving him regardless of his life. Nothing is ever broken it just needs a little bit of love to fill in the cracks. If your family has a strong...