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    So disclosed to my therapist

    So, I posted in here approximately month ago about having issues disclosing. Well, I have been keeping my musings on my phone in an app I have. So today I have therapy. I took a huge leap and texted it to her. Thinking she wouldn't text anything back but we would talk about it in therapy. It...
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    Disclosing to my therapist

    First of all, I trust my Therapist. I have such issues disclosing my abuse. I don't really talk to anyone about my abuse. I have a strong stance on vicarious trauma. I have this thought process that it stops with me. I am not going to allow this memory to have power over anyone else. So, I don't...
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    Childhood 6th sense

    I have PTSD from sexual abuse as a child. I repressed it until I was 17. To this day I have some memories that I have pieced together and I don't remember much. I have flashbacks and nightmares. They will subside and then I will get triggered and it will be horrible. So my questions does anyone...
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    The truth is unreal

    My memories of sexual abuse came back when I was 17. It's been 17 year since that started. So,I am 34. I have found out I was raped by three men and an additional person molested me. Lately, memeories have been coming back frequently. I think it's due to accupuncture. Yesterday I was in church...
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    Why is sex so difficult?

    I have sexually abused as a child repeatedly and as an adult. I really started dealing with my trauma for the past two years. I started having acupuncture at the suggestion of my therapist. More things started coming back. Now every time I get intimate with anyone even just kissing. I start...
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    Acupuncture 3.0

    I had my third acupuncture session. I let her know I was dealing with a lot of memories coming back and was having a hard time. She said she would add some more needles to our normal regimen. Oh my goodness I started having intrusive thoughts and just laid there and shook. This is community...
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    Childhood I want to throw things

    I am not the violent type but I connected a feeling to a memory and it makes sense. Now I know I need to process it but I know it will involve crying. I don't want to put forth the effort it requires. I just want to scream, yell, shake something, but I am a class A bottler.
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    Thoughts of cutting

    I hate it when you remember the songs you use to hurt yourself to and the urge hits you like a ton of bricks.
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    Acupuncture?

    I just had my first acupuncture treatment for trauma. Anybody else done this?
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    Showers

    I have like showers, but I am starting to remember unpleasant memories connected to showers. I thought it something bad happened in a certain type of place you never did like it. I guess I was wrong.
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    Almost flashback in public

    I went a a different hair stylist and I know her. I have known her for a couple of years. I had to get up out of the chair and go to wash station and I sit down in the chair and leaned back and she turned on the hand held sprayer and I started getting super anxious and I thought/prayed, "Oh dear...
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    Childhood Did your abuser ever become angry

    I was raped as a child. I just remembered my abuser would get really angry if my body didn't react to sexual contact especially intercourse. If I didn't orgasm he would get mad. Does it make anyone else angry that you did react to the abuse as in an orgasm? Does it make anyone else angry that we...
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    Sufferer Recovery sucks. childhood and adult sexual abuse.

    Hello, I am new here but not new to trauma. I am a survivor of childhood and adult sexual abuse. I am currently trying a new therapy called Somatic therapy. After going through EMDR and I think it re-traumatized me. Through EMDR what I thought was one person when I was a child turned into three...
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