Last year in March I started to remember some repressed memories from my childhood.
I have had such a difficult time trying to get my head around everything and I have been having flashbacks,self harming and suicidal thoughts.
I have also been avoiding any sexual contact with my partner.That was...
My repressed memories of CSA have only come back over the last 11 months since I was triggered by a trip to the dentist.
Up until now I have had one major theme with my flashbacks but this morning in the bathroom I had a new and different flashback.
Now I am left wondering what else is going to...
The last 10 months for me have been a complete nightmare.
It all started off with a trip to the dentist which lead to some repressed memories to come out.Memories which I couldn't remember until this year.
Since then I have had flashbacks ,body memories and nightmares.My mood has been low...
I have had 6 sessions with a counsellor who specialises in sexual abuse and so far I have found it difficult but I also know I need to do this in order to move on.
My new therapist is completely different to my last therapist in that I know nothing about him at all apart from his first name...
I have just started working with a sexual abuse counsellor and yesterday he asked me as massive question " Did I feel any pleasure during my abuse" ?
He said it was a important that I answer the question because I am feeling so much shame and disgust at the moment . I gave him a very honest...
Yesterday I said goodbye to my therapist and today it is hurting me so much.
We have been seeing each other for a year and a half but because he is a NHS therapist he isn't allowed to see me any longer.
Yesterday I had to be the strongest I have been in a long time because I didn't want our...
The last time I went to the dentist it was a major trigger for me and I started to remember all these repressed memories from my childhood and for the last 6 months I have really struggled with my mental health.
I am in need of a check up with my dentist but even the thought of it is causing me...
I feel so sorry for my therapist,when I first walked into his room he probably had the brief that he was about to deal with someone who had PTSD and that we would work on getting rid of a certain memory with the use of EMDR and I would be gone within 12 weeks.
However I kept getting stuck on...
I have always known that my father was physically abuse towards me when I was a child and it is something that I have been working through with my T.
However something changed in my thoughts last week and it started with a trip to the dentist.This dentist had exactly the same hair colour as my...
Just wondering how many of us have tattoos or piercings on this site.What is your tattoo and whereabouts on your body is it.
I have got a semi colon on my wrist which I got on Halloween last year and I got it not only for the message but also to help ground me.I am looking to get a small...
I live in the UK and have been seeing my T for nearly 9 months which on the NHS is quite a long time as usually it is normanlly 3-4 months but because of the nature of my childhood I think my T wanted to help me for longer.
I have a really close relationship with my T but I also have a problem...
I have been seeing my T for about 5 months now on and off and I have actually got to the point where I am starting to trust him which is a really big thing for me as I have never trusted a T before and I find it very difficult to trust people in general.
Last week I cried properly for the first...