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  1. Emotional girl

    Had sex for the first time in a year

    Last year in March I started to remember some repressed memories from my childhood. I have had such a difficult time trying to get my head around everything and I have been having flashbacks,self harming and suicidal thoughts. I have also been avoiding any sexual contact with my partner.That was...
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    Childhood Do the flashbacks ever go away ?

    My repressed memories of CSA have only come back over the last 11 months since I was triggered by a trip to the dentist. Up until now I have had one major theme with my flashbacks but this morning in the bathroom I had a new and different flashback. Now I am left wondering what else is going to...
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    Childhood Today I said those words - Talking about CSA

    The last 10 months for me have been a complete nightmare. It all started off with a trip to the dentist which lead to some repressed memories to come out.Memories which I couldn't remember until this year. Since then I have had flashbacks ,body memories and nightmares.My mood has been low...
  4. Emotional girl

    I like the fact that I know nothing about him

    I have had 6 sessions with a counsellor who specialises in sexual abuse and so far I have found it difficult but I also know I need to do this in order to move on. My new therapist is completely different to my last therapist in that I know nothing about him at all apart from his first name...
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    Childhood Pleasure during abuse

    I have just started working with a sexual abuse counsellor and yesterday he asked me as massive question " Did I feel any pleasure during my abuse" ? He said it was a important that I answer the question because I am feeling so much shame and disgust at the moment . I gave him a very honest...
  6. Emotional girl

    Yesterday we said goodbye - NHS therapy ending.

    Yesterday I said goodbye to my therapist and today it is hurting me so much. We have been seeing each other for a year and a half but because he is a NHS therapist he isn't allowed to see me any longer. Yesterday I had to be the strongest I have been in a long time because I didn't want our...
  7. Emotional girl

    Going back to the dentist after remembering CSA

    The last time I went to the dentist it was a major trigger for me and I started to remember all these repressed memories from my childhood and for the last 6 months I have really struggled with my mental health. I am in need of a check up with my dentist but even the thought of it is causing me...
  8. Emotional girl

    I feel so sorry for my therapist

    I feel so sorry for my therapist,when I first walked into his room he probably had the brief that he was about to deal with someone who had PTSD and that we would work on getting rid of a certain memory with the use of EMDR and I would be gone within 12 weeks. However I kept getting stuck on...
  9. Emotional girl

    Childhood Always remembered the physical abuse but now i think there was sexual abuse as well

    I have always known that my father was physically abuse towards me when I was a child and it is something that I have been working through with my T. However something changed in my thoughts last week and it started with a trip to the dentist.This dentist had exactly the same hair colour as my...
  10. Emotional girl

    Have you got any tattoos or piercings ?

    Just wondering how many of us have tattoos or piercings on this site.What is your tattoo and whereabouts on your body is it. I have got a semi colon on my wrist which I got on Halloween last year and I got it not only for the message but also to help ground me.I am looking to get a small...
  11. Emotional girl

    I don't know what to do for the best - final sessions & transference

    I live in the UK and have been seeing my T for nearly 9 months which on the NHS is quite a long time as usually it is normanlly 3-4 months but because of the nature of my childhood I think my T wanted to help me for longer. I have a really close relationship with my T but I also have a problem...
  12. Emotional girl

    Eye contact with t

    I have been seeing my T for about 5 months now on and off and I have actually got to the point where I am starting to trust him which is a really big thing for me as I have never trusted a T before and I find it very difficult to trust people in general. Last week I cried properly for the first...
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