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  1. Keen

    Mistrust in church since abuse

    I was groomed and sexually abused by my religious leader when I was young. I belong to a Christian faith, and I'm just now realizing or making the connection that that could be why I struggle so much with my faith and trust in Jesus and in my church. My whole adult life I've been suspicious of...
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    Difficulty using language to explain things I know

    I have difficulty repeating back instructions despite understanding them and being able to behaviorally do them/follow them. The trouble is just in using language to explain what I know and understand in my head. So I can do what I'm asked to do, but can't explain to another person what the...
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    DID DID and gender identity and orientation

    Anyone with DID or a dissociative disorder feel like they are non-binary (gender identity) because of their parts? Or feel that their sexual orientation is the way it is because of their parts? Its hard to tease things apart huh? To figure out if the chicken came before the egg, what caused...
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    Gaslighting by parents

    Has anyone read any good/helpful articles or books about when parents gaslight their juvenile children while raising them?
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    Dissociation and anxiety preventing employment

    I need help thinking through this, and thought you might be able to help. My diagnoses are DID, PTSD, and OCD, so I put this in here because you all are maybe more likely to understand because you have other disorders besides PTSD. Background: Okay, so I have been unemployed for 6 years now. I...
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    DID Dating with DID/PTSD

    How do you ever date or get married when you have DID?? A friend wants to set me up, and I suddenly realized: who wants to date someone with child alters? I realized how there is so much about my life that I'm ashamed of, that I try to hide from people. But when you date, people ask questions...
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    Suicidal urges after positive experiences

    Do any of you experience strong suicidal urges right after a positive experience? Not like "that was such a great vacation and I'm low now that its over." I've had that, but this is different. This is super consistent after any positive experience--a nice relaxing walk and talk with a friend...
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    DID DID/Self-Harm

    Don't know if this is the best place to put this, but I was diagnosed with DID so I thought maybe here. An alter self-harmed yesterday. This has not happened in over 2 decades, not since I was younger than a teenager. So I am just shocked and confused why it happened now. Several are always...
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    DID To tell or not to tell your prescribing physician that you have DID

    Hey my friends with DID, question: did you tell your prescribing physician that you have DID? I don't want DID on any medical records, it feels like that could be used against me at some future period of time, and I feel like because there aren't specific medications for DID, they don't need to...
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    DID Most helpful DID techniques?

    Question for those with DID and DID-spectrum disorders. What therapeutic techniques have helped you most in managing or overcoming your DID? I'm wondering about both individual therapeutic strategies (i.e. yoga, grounding, etc) and types of therapies (CBT, DBT, EMDR, etc)? I feel like I've...
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    Sudden changes in depression/suicidality?

    I wanted to know if any of you who have struggled with depression ever have the experience of sudden changes in your feelings of depression or suicidal thoughts? For example, being completely fine for weeks, and then waking up the next morning extremely depressed and suicidal. Or feeling...
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    DID DID support groups?

    Anyone know of any DID support groups that are legitimate and safe? You can private message me if you want. Thanks!
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    Isolation and Life Purpose

    Lately, my PTSD is so bad that I have been stuck at home almost 24/7 for over a month. Sometimes I can get out and drive around. Once or twice I was able to leave the car and go somewhere--i.e. the store to get food. But, my anxiety has been keeping me from getting a job, volunteering, or...
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    Two choices-fear or danger

    I don't want to live in fear, but it feels as if I only have 2 choices: 1. Somehow make myself decide "who cares" and just live my life the way I want to, not worrying about whether my abusers may end up trying to hurt me again or kill me, and potentially exposing myself to the risk of getting...
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    DID Child parts doing adult activities in did

    Do any of you with DID have times where a kid part is out but you are engaging in adult activities that a kid should not know how to do i.e. driving a car, cooking/baking, working, etc? How do you or your therapist explain whats going on here?
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    Dissociation during emdr every time - advice?

    No matter which way we try to go about it, I dissociate EVERY time we start doing EMDR, and its getting very discouraging. My T says the goal is for me to be able to do EMDR while staying present. We've done lots of groundwork, learning things like safe place imagery, protective and other...
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    Emotional vocabulary

    My T says I'm emotionally blunted and need to develop a greater emotional vocabulary. She gave me some HW to do, but I'm wanting more I can do so I can increase this ability quicker. I couldn't really find much online though. What has helped you to develop greater emotional vocabulary or...
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    Childhood Found a way to stop trying to determine if what happened 'counted' as abuse?

    If you were abused as a child, do you ever keep reflecting on it over and over and try to determine if it really 'counted' as abuse? I do this all the time. I'll even look up official definitions of physical, sexual, emotional abuse, and of neglect (educational, medical, etc), and I will see...
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    DID Is d.i.d. all in my head? (pun intended)

    Does anyone else with DID struggle with accepting the diagnosis and go back and forth between accepting it and disbelieving it? I guess I already know the answer to this, of course people do with any diagnosis. I wish I could just feel 'sure' one way or the other. I know when I accept it and...
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    DID Self acceptance and hope

    I have two question, which could be for anyone with any disorders, but as I am struggling with DID right now, that is what is on my mind. Feel free to respond, whatever you're struggling with. 1. What has helped you to develop self-acceptance? 2. What gives you hope to keep fighting and trying?
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    DID Purposes of individual alters/parts

    Hey DID friends, I'm back looking for more insights/advice, thanks for your support! Here's my latest question: what is the point of a "completely incapable" part? My therapist has been saying that each alter/part is there for a reason and was helpful at some point. What could be helpful about a...
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    DID Telling partner's parents about did

    Hi friends with DID, My partner is the only person who knows about my diagnosis, but we feel like it'd be safer for someone else to know just in case she wasn't around to help me during a crisis or something like that. After thinking carefully about who I could possibly trust with such sensitive...
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    DID D.i.d. or bad character?

    Guys, I could really use your thoughts right now. This is for anyone with DID who have some parts they're "co-conscious" with. I was at therapy, I totally switched into this alter, and it was behaving and speaking in all these embarrassing ways, and I just watched and couldn't stop myself and...
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    DID A few questions for those with d.i.d.

    I had a couple questions for those diagnosed with DID. I'm really struggling with this, especially accepting it, and hoping talking with others might help. One thing that bothers me is that I don't remember these switches occuring when I was younger, does this mean I can't actually have it, or...
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    DID How to tell my pastor about my did

    Hi, I'm new here. I just got diagnosed with DID, I've been diagnosed with PTSD for a few years now. It looks like this forum is where people are posting about DID so I hope this is the right place. I'm looking for advice or resources to help other people understand my diagnosis. In...
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