February 20, 2018..
I went through the waredrobe unprepared for the harsh winter frost. That is to say, I think I started therapy at a bad time. I went to one visit with the trauma specialist.. And I'm moving in 4 days and skipped an appointment. I plan to start once I move. My mother and I...
I called my doctor yesterday and she wasnt in, but the receptionist said she would text her to refill my script? Well I was working, but I thought I called early enough.. There's no emergency line, and she never refilled it. Now I have to wait until Monday. It's been really hard at times... I...
I just got off the phone with my psychiatrist's office. I was scared to call because I owe them money. But she was very nice. The sucky part is that my doctor isnt in today, but the lady said she'll text my doctor to see if she can refill my antidepressants today so i can pick it up after work...
My insurance only lets me fill at Walmart or CVS. And I have no refills. But I'm going to try calling the nurse line first, today wasnt too great.. And I feel fuzzy.. Like I'm fazing out and in. Like I'm not really here or there..
Oh, that sounds not so fun.. Did you feel the wothdrawals the first day or two, or did it sneak up? I have emergency xanax that I've had to take because I've been feeling jittery and like a live wire. And I'm not sure if I've experienced a brain zap.. But I do have a weird prickly headache on...
I'm so scared to do that. I talked to many pharmacies over the past couple of days to no avail. And ER scares me. I don't know if I can just call them. It's zoloft, will it be that bad?
I'm having a bad night.
It's been day 2 off of my antidepressants. My insurance has made it impossible to get my refills because they locked me into a pharmacy I can't get to easily.
I'm nervous. Really nervous. Never been off of antidepressants cold turkey. What do I do? I can't call my...
I did some spackling and sanding today for an old artist friend who I help decorate events for. I also woke up and went to work for my baby girl, and earned some money to send to my husband for an apartment for us.
This morning, a big cup of French Pressed French Roast coffee that I couldnt finish.. I didn't eat until I got home from work. Instant Ramen. And I just had a little breakfast burrito for dinner. Oh, I also had an energy drink during work. And I'm sipping on water. I've come a long way from...
Hearing my baby girl on the phone. Finally activating a phone so I can call my fiance whenever I need him without needing a Wi-Fi network. Working through all of my back pain. Not having a panic attack.
Okay, I'm trying it. I've always sucked at Journals or Diaries. I was a far better poem or story writer. I could never finish an entry. I guess I would start, and then just stop. It's been a long time since I took a crack at it, so.. Alright, let's just dive right in.
My birthday is coming up...
Thank you for that. I was wondering why when I joined this website yesterday why I was freaking out even worse last night. I thought maybe it was a bad idea and I wasn't ready.. but you affirmed my realization that it gets worse before it gets better. And this is just my body telling me that I'm...
Nightmares. Sleep paralysis. Night terrors. All of these are nothing new to me. I've dealt with these my entire life, thought I don't deal with sleep paralysis nearly as much as I did when I younger. Thanks to my grandmother, who raised me better than my own parents and taught me how to get...
Thank you for that. That actually made me feel a bit better.. So i looked up the doctor that I'm seeing in a week, and she's a pyschotherapist? I don't know if she's the one to go to for that, but it says she specializies in Trauma/PTSD. And I guess I'm ready to start healing because I've been...
I'm sorry if I sound stupid right now. I've just been bottling and avoiding these thoughts and covering them up my entire life for the sake of others. And now that I'm 24, and realizing I shouldn't have done that.. I get so scared because now I can't avoid what I tried to forget anymore. Too...
I don't know. It hasn't been flat out said. I don't know if a therapist decides that? I don't know. But I can't stop these constant reminders in my head of so many things that my family has put me through. How I was forced to live with my abuser, allowed him to live with me when I had my own...
Yes, it's stimulant. I first went to see her because my OBGYN thought that I was going through Post Partum Depression after I had my baby girl. Because I was on Vyvance and Prozac and stopped before I got pregnant. So my new psychiatrist put me back on Vyvance (a long-acting stimulant), and then...
I don't know if this counts as advice, but I went through something similar with my grandmother. It was very hard and it's still hard, but it does get easier. It isn't easy to experience someone you love so much going through something so horrible. But it does get easier. Right now, you probably...
So I just started seeing a psychiatrist half a year ago.. because I was diagnosed with Severe Depression/Severe Anxiety/ADHD a year ago. The medicines I'm on now are,
Zoloft 100mg
Adderall 10mg
Xanax .5 (A very small amount for random panic episodes I get whenever the hell they want to come...