Muesli and honey yogurt. Muesli and yogurt is my no brain breakfast when the stove is off. I think from the weekend onwards I’ll be in - ‘cannot think? Eat porridge’ season.
The Guillermo dell Toro series on Netflix- I think it’s called cabinet of curiosities.
We have only one left.
We’ve both had nightmares from them so I will not watch them after 8pm
Just our work or art we love?
I bought DH a painting for Christmas ( nothing that fancy - just a cat picture I bought from eBay cheaply but the artist is well known so it was an exciting bargain) and it needs a new frame. Because I’m not terribly fond of cat paintings 😂 I’m finding it...
I don’t love All Hallows- but I don’t hate it.
I don’t like costumes that aren’t related to ‘death’ or spirituality and turn it into a mere fancy dress though I accept that’s a personal and slightly cultural thing.
I like making scary food ( though haven’t for ages) and recognising that...
Father - “Can I let the boy dog in ?”
Me - “no, rescue girl ( in season) is inside “
Father - “well it’s not his fault she is in season , she should be out”
He literally just victim blamed a dog .
( of course both dogs are totally innocent- and are taking turns in/ out and crated when both...
It’s quarter past one in the morning. You are pulled from a deep sleep by a repugnant odour. You awake to discover that the miscreant rescue dog has smeared her faeces across the walls and carpet of your upstairs landing.
Dopey with sleep you wonder how to start cleaning this, when your...
There are very few things that make me feel violent. Having my father live with us is one.
That I cannot feel kinder I’d another.
I often wish he’d hurry up and die :(. It’s a terrible way to feel about a parent . He is the best way to feel intense sorrow for my mother .
( I know I...
I think my first two years I was pretty untenable because of how symptomatic I was. I’d have to ask DH - but I know for about two and a half years I only left the house , often only our room, once or twice a week - for therapy or yoga.
I don’t know when it ramped down from being constant...
I realise that I ….
Still rely on T more than I realised.
She is on compassionate leave and I said I was coping just fine and would do if she needed a staged return to work - I’m pottering on. Not making progress at tremendous speed but not slipping back - and stability is really a huge...
A thank you card from a nine year old that is grateful I let her play with my pony. She said my ‘kindness and smile brighten her life’ - so cute !
She helps me so much as I have not the energy right now to do much myself and she and her capable mother are doing it for me - I will try and...
How did I only just find this thread @Friday ?
It’s coming up to midnight on a Sunday so I am currently worried about .
1. Having totally failed to prepared to prepared in any way for the week ahead
2. Money, money, money
3. Having to take a tyre in to the shop tomorrow . ( I get...
I’ve not looked around lately and just saw this @somerandomguy . I am so very sorry you have lost Ferdinand and so impressed you put his welfare beyond any want to have a little longer with him.
As for ‘compare’. Well- that’s pointless, but I lost two grandmothers and a dog in a month and...
We only have chickens and quail. I will say that the quail- who are in an aviary, make me sad. I love their sounds but I hate that they are ‘caged’ . Similarly I took care of a parrot for someone and it broke my heart . I let her have all the time I was at home and awake out of her cage...
Tomorrow my ponies’ trainer is taking me out in my first pairs driving lesson with a pair of beautiful horses ( not mine) . I’m both terrified and excited.
Just want to echo the sentiment of not feeling ‘silly’.
There is a lovely meme that talks about children’s books being full of dragons and fairies and lions in the back of wardrobes while adult books are about war, divorce and arguing- so read children’s books ! Why not the same for film ...
Um- I didn’t answer the OP. I actually believe myself to be resilient. I did not fit a long time , but resilient doesn’t mean totally impervious or indestructible- it just means ‘ resilient’. I am coming around to the idea that given the challenges I faced during childhood ‘only’ having...
I find more resonance for my situation in the idea that PTSD is an injury - either a really big one, or a repeated grinding away in cPTSD , rather than an ‘illness’ .
I also agree that the support thing is relevant - but I don’t think it has to be AFTER the event. I think that it can be...