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    black cloud of chaos

    So this might sound crazy but stick with me... My abuser kidnapped me, held me hostage and killed himself. Died in my lap. forward 6 years.. My life has been nothing but chaos and a series of unfortunate events. I don't leave the house unless to get groceries, i talk to one maybe two people...
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    playing the victim

    I recently had someone get upset with me when I didn't respond to a text message. So I told them about how I let a noise scared me enough to make me throw up. and then had to try and quietly have a panic attack because I didnt wanna wake my parents. this bitch straight up told me I was playing...
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    facing drug charges, will a medical card help?

    I am currently facing drug charges due to my toxic boyfriend (see my other posts). They are trying to make me go to drug court and probation. Will me having a medical Marijuana card make any difference? I've smoked for so long I am literally terrified thinking about having to quit.
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    legal trouble

    I am(was) in a toxic relationship. I lost myself trying to keep him on the right track and out of trouble. He lied and manipulated me into needing him or relying on him. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough so I started being more like him and doing the things he liked, hoping he would like...
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    post trauma legal issues

    I dont know how to stop living as if im still in an abusive relationship. I dont know how to stand by my boundaries and always end up doing things I don't want to just to make someone else happy or to avoid upsetting them. Im so weak, submissive and pathetic that it lead me to getting arrested...
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    time isnt healing my wounds

    my whole life I've heard people say "time heals all wounds"... yet the more time that passes, the worse I get. my trauma was 6 years ago yesterday. I couldn't just sit home and feel sorry for myself 6 years ago so i jumped back into life pretty quickly.. I ended up going back to school and...
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    defending myself

    why do I always feel the need to justify/defend myself for having sleep problems, memory problems, anxiety..? why I do things that I do and stuff like that. I feel like im constantly having to make excuses for myself and its tiring. people say "it's okay to not be okay" ... okay then why do you...
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    bi-polar boyfriend

    I am almost 6 years out of my abusive relationship and trauma. I have been dating my current boyfriend for a year but we've been friends since we were we 13. My current boyfriend (CBF) and I have been having alot of communication issues, lack of trust and just arguing alot. He recently realized...
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    why do i do this?

    so i am just curious if anyone is or has experienced this after their trauma... since my trauma I feel like I cant articulate the same as I did before. I can never find the right words to say what i want to say, not just when talking about my trauma but in every conversation. I end up...
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    Dom Violence 3 years in an abusive relationship. 3 years out. consumes my whole life.

    I was in an abusive relationship for 3 years. He was a drug addict and would make me find him and buy him drugs. when I myself have never done more than smoke weed. I tried to leave him when I found out my mom had cancer. he stalked me I had him arrested and got a restraining order. I felt...
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