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    When a friend doesn’t respond

    Sometimes a text comes at a moment one is not available, or doesn't feel like responding. I have a friend who makes this a rule of freedom: they will respond, but three days, or maybe three weeks later. I know that, so I don't make a problem of it. But then again, I'm not such a texting person...
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    Other Fear of authorities, sirens, vans...

    Thank you so much. It does make sense, doesn't it? I had real trauma: 'out of the blue' arrest, and later intimidation, lies, harrassment. Plus the family history. And still, I think there is something else beneath it: in my childhood, I got the message from my parents that at any time, somebody...
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    Other Fear of authorities, sirens, vans...

    There must be a more ancient origin to this, but I have very big fear of the authorities. In 2011 I learned that my mom, aunt and grandmom were in a concentration camp, and I am aware that since childhood, even though nobody talked about this, I had images, and irrational fear of police...
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    What are panic attacks really?

    Thank you Friday; I had to giggle about the mosquito fart. That alone helps the panic dissipate. And yes I guess I'm in for a long ride on the bumpy road of therapy now, and I wonder if every day will bring new flashbacks? Maybe a trauma diary would be good. Thank you for the support. I'm new...
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    What are panic attacks really?

    I mean, I know them. I have had them a lot thirty years ago, and right now I just had one again: lightheaded, hyperventilating, even tetany (hands clasping unvolontarily). After thirty years. I have just started trauma therapy to clear the last bits of my past. And it seems there is way more...
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    Sleep problem cured with cbd ?

    I kind of get used to it. At first I went eeeew too ;-)
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    Avoiding people but wanting support

    Same here! I don't do much with people, don't go out much, even though I love it and really need it... I also need to stay home alone and bum around with my thoughts and feelings... It's difficult to find balance! Many times when I spent a weekend doing nothing and seeing nobody, I feel sad...
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    Sleep problem cured with cbd ?

    It's a closed group, of course!
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    Sleep problem cured with cbd ?

    There's a group on Facebook, I think it's called 'CBD Education' and it is very interesting, plenty of people weaned off meds, or use way less thanks to CBD.
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    Cbd oil review

    I think so too. I had huge sleep problems for decades, and lately slept only about 3 hours/night, and ended up taking half sleeping pills. I tried CBD for two months or so, first I had a bit of trouble with too high dosis (no THC), and am now taking 1 drop early morning (makes me get a few extra...
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    Sleep problem cured with cbd ?

    I had sleeping problems since childhood, and lately my pattern was making me dysfunctional: sleep from 11 or 12PM until 2 AM, and then wide awake. I took half sleeping pills for months in order to be able to go to work... For a few months I have been fiddling around with CBD oil, hoping it...
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    Started emdr

    Hello :-) Yes, it's Saturday end afternoon here and I feel so sleepy again. I had first session Thursday morning, and it was a bit unexpected, as we had just started one session talk, but my realizations of the past week made my therapist decide I was ready for a first session. It was short, we...
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    Have you ever stopped and started therapy with the same person again?

    Yes, I went back once, after having thought I was finished with him. He just let it all happen, no problem. Some even say when you leave: "don't worry, I will always be your therapist"
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    Started emdr

    Thank you, Ms Standing.. I guess I just need to share a little something to touch ground.. make sure all this is really happening ;-)
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    Power poses

    Yes, it's good. I thought it to my coaching groups years ago after having seen the TED video. It's very nice.
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    Started emdr

    Hello, sorry for my silence... I had my first EMDR session on Thursday. An amazing result: after months of dreaming about past relationships, I had a dream about my partner last night. Finally!! Having to mourn about somebody who is still alive may be even more difficult... and I'm learning...
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    Body work?

    Thank you so much for sharing this, it is very precious to me. I suddenly remember that some 28 years ago, somebody who was learning Trager gave me a massage once. I have no recollection of that experience... but I my try to find a therapist now. Thank you again for your soothing way of sharing...
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    Undiagnosed Ptsd from loneliness?

    So years long (childhood) abuse by psychopathic parent can not be cause of PTSD? Strange that emotional abuse is not in that list of A?
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    Grief, steps and where am i?

    So grieving happens in 5 steps basically: 1/ Denial 2/ Negotiation 3/ Anger 4/ Depression/sadness 5/ Acceptance/peace In case of childhood parental abuse, there's huge grieving to be done re. not having a safe place with parents. My sister always used to say: "What are you hoping for...
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    Body work?

    I do restorative yoga, very gentle and deep, and it always reconnects me nicely - I never regret my sessions, on the contrary.. but these things are never intrusive, as you go as far as you can go and it will never push you beyond your limits. I was wondering if in some kind of body work therapy...
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    Body work?

    For the first time ever in my life, I can feel that the body really does have a memory, and it is quite mysterious. I am reliving flash backs sometimes, or getting insights, and they are accompanied by bodily sensation - that some would call 'menopausal' but that are really connected to trauma...
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    Emdr and cptsd

    My GP wants me to do it, with a psychotherapist she trusts 100%. I would like to start some time soon.
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    Sufferer Hello! childhood abuse, dv, ptsd after menopause

    That's all so amazing. Why haven't I found this place earlier? I know, something about time and ready. Thank you for the welcome.
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    What exactly is a ptsd nightmare?

    In my dreams, I often go near the fear, as far as I can bare. Most of the time (for years now), it is about 'someone being at the door', and me knowing it's bad, I'm trapped, I want them to go away, leave me alone, I need to call the cops but can't, I'm watching through the bull's eye but can't...
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    Sufferer Hello! childhood abuse, dv, ptsd after menopause

    Thank you so much, Tornadic, for he inspiration! I'm sighing sighs of relief reading your words here. The groove and the jive will win..
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