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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    I never thought about it this way, but you are so right. I was to focused on feeling physically better. I need to learn to have trust in my body again but it’s a hard and long road… I was diagnosed with Multiple sclerosis a little more than a year ago, so chronic fatigue is a big deal for me, it...
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    Thanks for thinking of me, and asking again :) I am doing okay, I guess. Still, my body sensations are more intense, but I am not having as many flashbacks as the first few weeks after surgery! That’s a good thing! But I am struggling more with this event that I like to admit… Every morning I...
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    Do you have maladaptive daydreaming?

    After being really numb and empty since surgery in November, I am struggling with this again... Struggling sounds kind of wrong, because it feels so helpful, dreaming away is a big relieve from my depressive thoughts at the moment. But that’s exactly what’s freaking me out because in my real...
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    Everything is going well physically, as good as could be, now it's just a matter of time. This makes dealing with it a lot better, and with a bit of luck I don't need to see any doctor in the next two months, which didn't happened the last two years! ? I need this 'free time' a lot, to get my...
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    What are you having for dinner? (wanna share your recipe?)

    Tried it yesterday, me and my boyfriend both agree it is really delicious! Definitely going to make it again.
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    I am beginning to become less anxious the last few days, because I am getting a lot better physically, which makes a huge point for me. My experience till now was that surgery is going to make things a lot worse, and leads into long periods of pain, medication etc. I wasn’t able to believe it...
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    Yesterday I had an appointment with my Therapist, and we mostly talked about what happened. She supports me in talking about it, as long as I want too and the old memories don’t take over. She said because everything went really well and this is the first time I am experiencing a medical...
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    States of Derealization

    It’s not long ago that I was told I struggle with depersonalization-derealization, so I am in an early learning or recognizing stage…. But I can relate to a lot of things both of you explained! The 3D mode, when it let up, seems so accurate! I am mostly bothered by derealization, and I feel...
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    Thanks for your reply! Yes I am physically okay. Yesterday my doctor told me the healing process is perfect and I don’t need to see him every day any more. The best way it all could go! He even told me I don’t have to worry this will happen again, but I can’t believe this at the moment. It was...
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    Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

    Some of you may know I have a medical trauma, and my worst nightmare was to ever have a surgery again, to get anesthesia again. It happened last week! I had an emergency surgery. I tried everything to avoid it, but in the end I was in such massive pain, didn’t sleep, couldn’t walk, couldn’t even...
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    Medical How to deal with upcoming trigger

    It would be possible for some appointments, but in Germany you normally get something that makes you a bit sleepy, and that would make it even worse for me. Every medication that is making me tired is a huge trigger as well. And you need to stay there for a few hours if you decide to take it...
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    What would you choose?

    Beard, unless it's not to long... Would you rather go to space or the deep sea?
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    Medical How to deal with upcoming trigger

    So it’s me again, with the same problem… After I did so well with the first MRI, I went down a complete other road. Every appointment I got more anxious and more intrusive pictures, and I totally shut off the complete day after. I started to have memories issues about the appointment days...
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    What would you choose?

    Cold winter with hot beverage and a wood stove Dusk or dawn?
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    Do you have maladaptive daydreaming?

    I spent the whole weekend living in my head again... To be honest I don't even regret it, because I can't handle stuff any other way right now. My body is really struggling at the moment. I can't deal with it! It's constantly triggering and I feel myself slipping into intrusive thoughts and...
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    Medical Ptsd from orthopedic surgeries

    Hi Nuance, i have PTSD from orthopedic surgeries, or I rather might say they are the major part of my trauma. First surgeries was with two years old, and a lot of them followed till I was close to 20. Those procedures were for my best, ‘needed’ one might say… Those procedures leaded into month...
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    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    I am feeling a mixture of anxious and annoyed... The current heatwave in Germany is triggering my MS Symptoms so heavy! It's my first summer with diagnosis, and of course it has do be such an extreme one. My doctor told me it's familiar that symptoms rise during heat, but i am constantly...
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    News Reverse classism/being afraid of germany or germans

    Hi! I am German living in Germany, and I don’t think you must be to stressed around us. I mean there are idiots everywhere…but most Germans are friendly and open-minded. My Grandparents grew up during the second world War as well, but their family didn’t talk about this a lot, I only remember my...
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    What Song Are You Listening To Right Now?

    The Slow Show - Dresden I am obsessed with them at the Moment, they have some great songs!
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    What Do You Need In This Moment?

    Another cup of coffee :sleep:
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    Affirmations!! say something nice about yourself!

    I like that i am a very creative person. That i am open minded and interested in things, thirsty for knowledge ( is this a term in English? :D) Last but not least, that i am still holding on...
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    Do you have maladaptive daydreaming?

    @Living in the 70s : I never imagined any of my pets in my daydreaming worlds, so I try to see her as an anchor. She can help me grounding, I thought that might be helpful. When i get intrusive memories or flashbacks, she often comes to me by herself, so I thought her closeness might help me...
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    Do you have maladaptive daydreaming?

    @Living in the 70s: I am in therapie again for the last month, my Therapist is a trauma specialist, but I never talked about this with her, because I never saw it as an unhealthy thing. For me it was really great coping strategise, and she encouraged me to use imagination like ‘safe place’ to...
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    Do you have maladaptive daydreaming?

    I am a daydreamer as well, I can’t remember a time when I hadn’t another life in my head. It was huge in my childhood, and to be honest it was the best way to cope, especially at times when I wasn’t able to walk by myself etc.. These fantasies last till today, even if the content changed there...
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    You Know You Have PTSD When...

    When...i burst into tears over a hiccup, yes :oops::laugh: no more words needed
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