I am both glad and extremely sad to know I'm not alone. Glad because it means it's a somewhat normal response for people who went through sexual trauma. Sad because, well, no human deserves to deal with this.
I did manage to confront my mother about it, but like everything else she put me...
And in coming to terms with that sentence, I realized for the first time that my mother was actively involved in my sexual abuse.
When it came to my stepdad's physical abuse, she took 99% of it. He would beat her mercilessly. There were only 2, maybe 3, instances where I was physically touched...
At the current time, I am freshly out of therapy. I had a bad experience with a new therapist, new as in I was one of her first 20 patients. So for now I am healing from the horrible things she said to me. I intend to be back in therapy by November. I am however keeping up with my psychiatrist...
I'm new here. I'm glad I found this place, but I'm sorry I didn't find it sooner unfortunately. I'm going to just be upfront and list my traumatic experiences.
1. From the age of about 7 to 9, and then 12 to 13, I had an abusive stepfather. He was mostly abusive towards my mother but he...