I think you've just nailed it for me! There's my black and white thinking again.
Prior to going into therapy it was recognised that my perfectionist ways, lack of emotional expression and harsh inner critic lead me to depression.
I think I've gone too far the other way.
Thank you.
God I love...
No military background at all but for some reason the discipline of it has started to appeal to me.
It's not about being harsh with myself (something I used to do) but having some self respect and pride.
And I've noticed when hospitalised it's almost military like in having healthy routines...
Been a long time since I've posted here, but I continue to suffer depression and anxiety.
I've spent 10 years in various therapies, in hospitals, different meds etc.
I'm starting to wonder if in fact these "treatments" are hindering rather than helping.
I feel by continually having to open...
God. I relate so much to your post it's scary.
I have two young sons. I wouldn't feel pressure about playing with them just now. As for food - if it's toast and beans or toast and eggs then that's okay.
I have nothing else to say right now, but your post contains so much of what I feel and...
Thanks safenow. The self-monitoring will be tricky. I tend to not know I'm overwhelmed until I have an episode. But even as I type that, it's not entirely true, I do get feelings of being overwhelmed but tend to push through so no one knows what is going on.
Then if I do manage to identify the...
My mind is a bit mushy so I hope this makes sense. I'm thinking of creating an accountability thread, where we can set our goals and encourage each other on the road to recovery, call each other on our B.S. if needed etc?
Here are my goals:
Control my alcohol intake (nothing in the...
Oh God, your poor darling husband and you. I think you should call the critical assessment team in your area (Cat team). I've had recent experience. I don't get your husbands experience, but I so get the confusion, the desperation. He is not alone. Please get outside help.
I have constant thoughts of suicide. I think about the best way to do it, that would be effective but cause the least amount of trauma. I research the internet. Panadol etc is ineffective and painful. Car crash could leave me paralysed but not dead. Sometimes I try to suffocate myself by holding...
It never seems to end, I'm powerless over it. I feel like I'm trying so hard but always this intense emotional hurt pain is there ebbing and flowing, varying in intenstity but always chasing me.
When will I ever be free of it?
Yes the CAT team will keep seeing me, I also see my GP today, will follow-up with the psychiatrist dude at some point. What trauma does to someone's brain is unbelievable.
For those playing at home, this psychiatrist doesn't believe I'm psychotic, he believes I'm traumatised. I've never officially received a PTSD diagnosed but maybe I'm on the way. I'm to keep taking my AD and serequeol (spelling?).
I just found this, which helps answer my question sort of?
Crisis assessment and treatment (CAT) service
A component of an Adult Area Mental Health Service which is available 24 hours a day to provide community based assessment and treatment for people experiencing psychiatric crisis. CAT...
No you have helped maddog. I guess I don't know how much of a risk I am? I don't want to hurt myself or others but I am worried I could possibly hurt myself. I guess that's for them to decide.
The CAT team were great. The male was pretty indifferent but the woman was lovely.
Thanks Maddog.
I will try to keep this brief. I had some sort of experience the early hours of Wednesday morning. I was in the city for work (staying overnight). I immediately contacted my city-based psychologist for a session. As a result of that session her strong sense was that I should...
Anyone familiar with the process?
My understanding is that admission to a psychiatric/mental health facility is usually a last resort but I'm wondering if there is an actual process that is followed that gives someone a bed over someone else?
Or is it really judged on a case by case basis?
How did you do it?
I've quit before, because both times I was pregnant and/or breastfeeding. And I replaced it with food, which I don't want to do this time around.
I'm working with my therapist to work out the reasons why I do it, but I'm stumped on what to replace it with.
I have two...
Thanks for your honesty Philippa. I feel lousy to be confronted with this stuff but I'm glad you have all done so. I need to hear it. This is where I really do appreciate the forum because rather then 'hugs' or 'go gently' you guys are still challenging me. I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings.
Thanks. Yes you are right. I'm in the process of changing therapists, so I'm hoping that will make me more 'contained' and less likely to self medicate. I have a brother who is a recovered alcoholic and still attends meetings twice a week so I'm aware of the pitfalls. I appreciate your directness.
Absolutely I think it should be incorporated, and I'm unsure as to all the 'hoo-ha' around a healing therapeutic touch with a clients permission to be honest.
About a month ago, my aunt was in town and we met for a nice lunch. My aunt was once married to my abuser. It's never been discussed between us.
Since then I spiralled out of control. I've avoided hospitalisation by seeing my GP twice per week.
I am having more flashbacks, but I think mostly...
I'm referring to two different posts?
And yes absolutely Nicolette, I totally agree about not posting when intoxicated. I hate the thought of upsetting you or anyone here so hopefully your post will stop me. I need a breathalyser before posting.:eek: