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    What Are Your Triggers?

    True triggers -- that send me straight into a panic attack (do not pass Go, do not collect $200): My doorbell ringing or someone knocking on my door The mere thought of someone coming in my apt. without advanced notice Police cars Animal abuse or neglect; animals being sick or injured (pretty...
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    Does Anyone Else Have An Urge To Give Back?

    Who are you, and what are you doing spying on me?? *giggle* Just teasin' ya' Kara, sounds like we are very muchly in the same boat. :smile: Bailey
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    Breach Of Rules Will Get You Moderated / Banned

    She allowed a medical professional to login and only to post in one thread. Anthony, did you go through the raw Apache logs and track exactly what pages the nurse viewed during that login? What did she do during that visit? If we're going to pander to the paranoia, let's back it up with hard...
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    Does Anyone Else Have An Urge To Give Back?

    Of course!! Oh my goodness Herc, that is so awesome! If I lived anywhere near our shelter, I am sure I would be there regularly. Unfortunately it's like 40 miles away, and with gas prices being so insane :eek: there's no way... I will say though, that caring for my own kitties has been...
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    Kind of Hard - Survivors Guilt

    Hi Hunch, I am glad that you took the big first step of registering and posting. I totally understand where you're at and what you're saying... having this huge thing tumbling around in your head, wanting to do something with it, but not sure where to go, feeling very private and uncertain...
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    Does Anyone Else Have An Urge To Give Back?

    Yep! Yes, I feel this urge very, very much. I am an EMT, have been a local volunteer first responder/EMT for 16 years now. I also take pics of fires for the fire departments. Unfortunately, due to my PTSD, I've had to cut back my responses by about 98% (literally :mad:) and I really pick and...
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    PTSD = Put To Sleep Dog? (Vent)

    It is funny that this thread should pop up right now. God sure does work in funny ways. ;) One of my kitties went lame on Friday morning, and we had him put down Saturday night. Two trips to the emergency vet clinic in 24 hours (about 400 total miles), $1100 in tests ........ the two vets we...
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    Does Anyone Else Suffer Multiple Trauma?

    Hi Alicia, When there are multiple traumas and multiple incidents to work on, remember that these are all stored and cross-referenced as bits-and-pieces throughout the neural network in our brain. It's not all neat and tidy up there, like perfectly stacked rows of boxes. :wink: Also changing...
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    Need a Lawyer, Any Suggestions?

    Oh, we are wayyyyy past the extension stage :wink: but thank you so much for being so helpful and for all of your ideas!!! :Hug_emoticon: I live in a very small town out in the middle of nowhere, so this is way beyond CPAs and local lawyers. The closest IRS office is 90+ miles away and I can't...
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    Need a Lawyer, Any Suggestions?

    I have not filed my federal income taxes (U.S.) in several years. I need a lawyer to help me sort it out. I know that I am in a Bad™ situation, but focusing on the negativity/judgment side of it ("that's bad"/"you're illegal") is not fixing the situation. I am trying like hell to stay...
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    Do You Dwell On Your Past?

    Obviously he does not understand the illness. If I may also be so bold (and please, take it or leave it, I won't be offended and this is merely my opinion) such an attitude from someone who supposedly cares for you greatly, is toxic and will only hurt you. It will never help you. For what it's...
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    Suggestions Please....First Anxiety Attack EVER.....

    Dezi, I've had panic attacks, and struggled with anxiety in general, for about 15 years now. Panic and anxiety aren't just a part of PTSD, they are stand-alone issues for some people too. I went on Paxil for both anxiety and depression (years before my trauma), and it had cut down on the...
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    Can Wellbutrin Help Reduce Anxiety?

    I should have mentioned, just as a general comment, that the worst of the side-effects for me, lasted about 10 days. I had a couple that continued for up to 6 weeks ... but they weren't bad, they weren't deal-breakers. That first 10 days was rough, the side-effects were worse than I expected...
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    Clumsiness - Does Anyone Else Suffer?

    I gave up on making lists like, a year ago. I tried and tried and tried... the trouble is, once I get the thoughts out of my brain, then I totally forget them. And then I forget there even is a list. Or if I remember there is a list, I lose it and can't find it. So what's the point?? I have...
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    Can Wellbutrin Help Reduce Anxiety?

    Hello, I'm the oddball. :hello: I had PTSD for 18 months (with gobs of anxiety, fear, paranoia and panic) prior to starting Wellbutrin in March. Wellbutrin has been really helpful to me. It has greatly reduced the intrusive thoughts, improved my depression (which had gotten much worse with...
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    Missing: Memories?

    Unlike many here, I had a really happy childhood. My trauma dates to the last 3 years (I am 36 y.o.) and it has nothing to do with my childhood. Yet I am missing whole chunks of my life ... years ... I am missing 95% of what I learned in college, and it's so far gone that when I have gone to...
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    Fourth Of July?

    For me, it is the sensory overload. Either the booms, or the light show, are enough to totally overload my brain by themselves. Together? No way, baby. I don't stand a chance. At least I know what it is -- that it's the noise, and the light. So, all events that have fireworks have been crossed...
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    Nightmare help....

    OMG, ga_yankee ... YES!!! I have walked around for whole days thinking a good friend of mine is dead, because the nightmare in which I saw or learned about her dying was so real, I was sure it had happened. For about 18 months I had a terrible time identifying what was dream and what was...
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    Do You Get Ill When Organizing Stuff?

    Oh Lordy, I've been through the spectrum on this. Early on in my PTSD, when it was its worst and totally untreated (no therapy or anything) I could not figure out how to do the simplest things to clean my home ... couldn't figure out how to clean the garbage off the kitchen counter ... couldn't...
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    Thoughts in Emerg the Other Night Really Scared Me!

    Pandora, yes, I've felt the same way. I don't know if it was the depression or the PTSD talking, but considering I've never felt that way when I had 'just' depression, I'll tag it on to PTSD! GOOD FOR YOU identifying those thoughts as not being normal. Sometimes it is really hard to know which...
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    PTSD As A Legal Defense

    becvan, I think you are right in that someone in CJ's situation would not have their reaction caused by PTSD, but PTSD surely could cause them to over-react (e.g., react with a greater level of force than a non-PTSDer might use). It doesn't cause the reaction itself, but IMO it definitely...
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    PTSD As A Legal Defense

    I have no idea the case you are talking about, and in fact in the course of offering my response, I am purposely completely removing any consideration of the case, pedophilia, etc. ..... my "take" on this has nothing to do with that guy and whatever he did. I am pushing it from my mind. Now...
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    Clumsiness - Does Anyone Else Suffer?

    Herc, have you always been on meds while you had PTSD? Do you remember if you had those symptoms pre-meds? Were you like that pre-trauma? (I'm so sorry, I am having a total brain fade on your hx, which is why I'm asking.) I have always been on Paxil (for like 11 years now), before and after...
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    Clumsiness - Does Anyone Else Suffer?

    Rachel, you've described me to a "T", the last 2 years (post-trauma). Granted I've never been particularly graceful *giggle* but post-trauma (once I developed PTSD) I became very lightheaded. I had a terrible time judging distance, and I tipped over all the time -- just TIPPED OVER. Whoops...
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    How to Explain PTSD to Employer/Office Staff

    To follow up on what to tell people in the office/work setting... I must echo what others have said... I would be very, very careful here. If you go back in past threads (like back to fall '07) you will find we talked about this in depth, not wanting to be labeled the workplace nutcase. You...
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