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    Pulling Police Report, Photos and Interview - Have You Done Something Similar?

    I want to do the same thing, but I have never gone through with it. Part of me wants to put it behind me and other part NEEDS to know all the details that were kept from me because I was 12. Do they have to give you the reports if you ask for them? My incident was probably before they...
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    PTSD - If You Could Draw It Or Describe It - What Would It Look Like

    I don't know all the football (American football) terminology, but all those big guys that line up and tackle each other. I feel like PTSD is like one of them. I'm just going on about my day to day life and one of those f***ers tackles me and knocks me down. It takes a little while to pull...
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    Therapists I Could Live Without

    This would make me so angry. I'm an atheist, too. Being told my belief system is no good is a pet peeve of mine. It is just so overwhelmingly offensive. When people do this to me, I refer to their god as their imaginary friend and that usually stops them in their tracks. That is incredibly...
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    Superman Complex... Do You Have It?

    I have it too, but I refer to it as the "I can do it all by myself" complex. The very thought of needed someone else for financially supporting myself or my daughter makes me ill. I work through being sick. I only missed 5 days of work last year when I gave birth, which was not an illness, just...
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    Is Comforting a Victim While Triggered Promoting the Victim Mentality?

    This is a great way to describe the feelings of being triggered. I did some reading recently on how the amygdala stores and retrieves memories and it made much more sense. Perhaps, you could encourage your husband to read up on it. I understand what you are saying, but I can also see your...
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    Shopping Trips!

    I work as a nanny and decided to take the baby to the zoo yesterday. I opted to take the Metro (transit train in DC) because I didn't think it would be crowded with everyone off of work for the July 4th holiday. I'm not really sure why I thought that mass transit into the nation's capital when...
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    Shopping Trips!

    I hate shopping. I try to go during weekdays because it not crowded. If I have to go on the weekend, I go early in the morning so there are not as many people. If something crazy happens and I need something during a peak shopping time, I always regret it. It stresses me out and drains me. I...
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    Explaining to People. i.e. Doctors

    I try to avoid saying that I have PTSD to non-medical people. I just say that I have an anxiety disorder. I don't want to explain what happened and they don't need to know all about my symptoms. I don't see much benefit to sharing and would rather not have one more f*cking person to tell me not...
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    Should I be Excluded From Jury Duty Because of PTSD?

    Thanks everyone! I really wanted to be on a jury. It just seems that there are several types of criminal cases that no attorney in his right mind would let me sit in on. I think I will note it if they send another questionnaire. If I get the summons anyways, then I don't any choice but to show...
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    LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and Transgender) People with PTSD : LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and

    To respond to Dylan, The hypocrisy drives me insane. My parents sent me to a private, southern baptist high school (and they wonder why I am an atheist now). I have read the bible, the whole damn thing. The bible is not preoccupied with queers, but its followers certainly are...even the ones...
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    LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and Transgender) People with PTSD : LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and

    Did anyone else manage to make it to some pride events? I just cannot hack the crowded events, like the parade. Any really, how many men do I need to see in leather shorts on the back of cars? (that was totally a joke, I know there is more to see than that at the parade) I was scheduled to go...
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    Should I be Excluded From Jury Duty Because of PTSD?

    I had jury duty a month or so ago. I'm not sure how it works in other countries, but here in the US, we have to answer a questionnaire before being sent the summons. One of the options is a medical exclusion. I didn't feel like my life is affected enough to be able to say that I would not be...
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    Venting Room

    I seem to have bad luck with antidepressants. I tried Celexa and then Effexor and had weird side effects. Doc said I am likely to have similar problems with all the SSRIs and SNRIs, so I can't take any of them. I started trazadone yesterday and had another unusual side effect, so the doc took me...
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    Holding A Conversation

    I used to have so much trouble concentrating while looking at someone. I can't slow down the thoughts or stop reading too much into their facial expressions. I was always so paranoid about sensing disapproval about what I was saying. It was difficult to form a sentence. My trick is to look away...
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    How To Wake Up A Sleeping Person with PTSD?

    I've made some progress in being woken up. I haven't punched anyone in ages. I do still scream and sometimes try to get away. I freaked on my girlfriend one night and she grabbed me and kept saying "It's just me". The grabbing and holding was not helpful. I warn anyone new that will be around...
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    Obsessing Over The Trauma

    Thanks everyone. I have been thinking it over since I started this thread and I am trying to come up with some ideas to stop doing it. It just seems to take over for a few weeks and I am so damn tired of it. I think it is an exercise I do to deal with the anxiety. Perhaps, I should expend the...
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    Obsessing Over The Trauma

    I do this every year in June or July and it is driving me nuts. I go over all the information I can remember. I read books on profiling and preventing violence, like 10 a month. I check my attackers record to make sure he has not done something similar again. This is going to sound crazy, but I...
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    Do You Think PTSD Is A Terminal Illness?

    I have not read all of responses in this thread, so apologies if someone has already said this. But, isn't life terminal? I read something once that said something like "Given a long enough time line, the survival rate for life is always 0". No matter the situation in our lives, we all have the...
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    I Gave Birth Without Panic

    I haven't posted in a while, but wanted to share. Before being diagnosed or treated, I gave birth and it was terribly traumatic for me. I was frozen with fear and my daughter had to be delivered with a vacuum. I decided a couple of years ago that I could give birth without that kind of fear...
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    Pregnancy And Anxiety Medications

    I saw the OB (actually a nurse practitioner) yesterday and explained the situation. She gave me a anxiety/depression questionnaire to fill out. After a few more questions, they had a psychiatrist for me to see in 2 hours. He prescribed Xanax. All the risks are for the beginning and end of...
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    Pregnancy And Anxiety Medications

    I have been doing really well and thought that I was finishing up this recovery thing. That was NOT one of my most intelligent assumptions. It was the 19th anniversary recently and my symptoms are out of control and worse than they have been in several years. I went to the see a doc and her...
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    LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and Transgender) People with PTSD : LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and

    The last time she asked, I made it clear that my orientation is not something that I am looking to try to change or figure out. I told her that I was happy and not stressed about it, my family is fine with it, etc and she hasn't brought it up much since then. I wonder if it was her own...
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    How Much Do You Tell Your Partner?

    I tell my girlfriend some stuff, but not as much as I tell my therapist or friends that have been through something traumatic. She seems a little freaked out sometimes if I go into much detail (this could be me being self-conscious about it too). I am afraid that she will think I am insane if I...
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    LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and Transgender) People with PTSD : LGBT (Lesbian ,Gay, Bi-Sexual and

    My therapist has asked several times if I am a lesbian because I was attacked by a man. I'm a little annoyed by this question, but I like the therapist otherwise. Anyone else get asked the same thing?
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    When Did You Realise Denial Could No Longer Help You?

    When I read that it frequently affects the parenting ability of the sufferer. I knew that I should be a better mother and realized then that there was something I could do to improve myself and my mothering. I was also growing tired of waiting for it to just 'go away'. I still wonder why I...
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