Yesterday after reading a thread entitled ' Coming to Terms with My Trauma' on the 'Chat PTSD' room. I left the site feeling extremely disturbed by what I had seen taking place.
A very , very vulnerable young man who has suffered extreme violations against himself by a family member and their...
I have come to realise that the old adage, 'you can't truly love another until you love yourself', to be so very true. I know on the surface this seems to be an obvious behaviour to adopt in terms of moving forward to a healthier psyche. It just seems to be a fundamental prerequisite involved in...
I just read a thread on here that reminded me of something I wanted to talk to my T about.
My latest and most bleakest moments were accompanied by excessive spending and purchasing. I am in no way a materialistic person and I live a simplistic life.
In reflection I feel it was another way...
I went out with a new girlfriend and asserted healthy boundaries about this new friendship. I did not move her in (really, I have a habit of accepting people into my life way to quickly), or treat her as my long lost friend. I accepted the invitation to go out and got to know her a little more...
I have had a major breakthrough today in therapy and I wanted to share and explore this feeling.
Today was not about re-visiting the past, today was about brining me into the here and now. My T kept referring to the date, 'you are here with me now, connected, in April 2008', then she would say...
I am struggling at the moment - struggling big time! I have lost my ability to be objective about myself. I could do with some major feedback. Your experiences or your ideas, or both!
I would like the Anthony, 'no nonsense approach', please! I reckon I need a good slap in the face to jolt...
Life is a funny old game eh? And life with PTSD is even funnier (sarcasm).
I spend so much of my life in a constant state of flux; my energy changes from one minute to the next. Depressed, crying, fleeting happy feelings, sadness, grief, anger, resentment, confusion, empathy, despair etc...
For a long time I unknowingly held back my emotions.
If I hurt myself I would internalise the pain. If I was hurting emotionally I would hold it all back.
Eventually, all of that holding back became a sea of swallowed up emotions, which settled deep down inside of me. I became as barren as...
This is something that I have particularly noticed for quite some time. I guess I am acutely aware now, as I travel along the path of healing.
Intimacy
My ex
In reflection I can see that I would spend a lot of my time consumed with thoughts of doubt. Doubt over everything; is he being mean...
I have this feeling so often and it consumes me at times.
I watch and see peoples' behaviour, towards myself and others. I just feel so disappointed by the world (people). I have this constant wish that the world would just get better!
It makes me feel like I am all alone in the world and...
I went to the doctors today to ask about my next phase of therapy and why I have been waiting so long - I believed that my wait was because I was so inconsistent with my last therapist. I explained to doc that I found the sessions really hard as my relationship was falling apart, my timetable...
Hey there,
my name is Vicky AKA 'spiritofnow' which I feel is very apt as part of this condition holds us to the past, which i am trying to break free from. I am 36yrs old, single with one child. I reside in the UK.
I know that I will write alot as I have alot to purge - its okay that you...