180 of feeling, then poof


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I had a moment about an hour ago and I'm still somewhat frazzled from it. I was watching a video that I love and had watched many times before and half a minute in I feel hate? Disgust? Why am I watching this? Then when I tried to analyze the emotion, it felt like I was being pulled apart and I was forced to the back of my head shouting "but I like this!" Then I dissociated for I don't know how long, maybe a minute, maybe 5, and it was pretty hard to shrug it off and come back. I still feel spacey. But I feel spacey most of the time.

I can't say I recall this happening before, but I kind of feel like it has. I just never had the mind to dwell on it.

Have you experienced this? Is it frequent?