I have a paper I need to write before 20 June. I have had more then a year to do it. I couldnt do. It is 55 hours work to write this thing and I have totally maybe done an hour of poorly thought out writing so I have to re wright most of it. From this Sunday I have done 2.5 hours daily writing and researching this paper. And not with my usual "bang the head against the wall" mentality. I do it because it is my life and it starts and ends with me.