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I have been Googling my issue for the past week and came across this website and then promptly registered. I need feedback that I can't obtain from friends or with the 2 people I'm about to discuss.
Here's my dilemma: I was in residential eating disorder treatment for 3 months, discharged in March. I ended up working with someone higher up in the program and he was/is the most amazing therapist I have ever worked with. I have never worked a therapist that I connected with (in treatment or as an outpatient). He specializes in anxiety and trauma as well as eating disorders. I did amazing work and I credit a lot of that to him.
Prior to discharge I obtained a single case agreement to work with someone outside of my insurance network because of her reputation and my familiarity with her (she was a clinical director of an OP program I attended 4 years ago). She also specializes in anxiety and trauma. When I discharged, I emailed my treatment therapist to give him an update and we had been talking weekly--which was not something I had envisioned when I left. Our conversations were in 30 minute range and one being almost an hour.
A couple of weeks ago I told him something trauma related that he was familiar with, something I did EMDR for. I felt more comfortable telling him than my actual therapist. During this conversation he had pondered if my insurance would do another single case agreement to work with him, since we have the connection I'm not feeling with my current therapist. Well, I researched this after my insurance said no and it was a bit too much. He didn't intend on his suggestion creating a divide and definitely didn't want to be in the way of me working with her. I spent days crying over this and realized that he is getting in the way and told him we should cut back on our communication. He agreed.
In my last conversation with him I inquired if he did private pay as a plan b, in case it doesn't work out with current therapist. He said we would cross that bridge if we got there. I told him I was initially authorized for 10 sessions and that I should know whether or not the current therapist is a good fit or not.
In my mind I have already decided to ask him after my 10th session with her if he will accept me as a client. I feel like he will agree because the only real barrier is his schedule--which can be worked around. The dilemma is that I feel shitty because current therapist sent me an email response today telling me that she has a lot to offer me if I give her a chance. My insurance is not going to be doing any more special favors for me if I stop seeing her and if the treatment therapist doesn't work out. I feel like she doesn't have a chance and I don't know what to do. I am not telling her that treatment therapist accepts private pay or that we are still communicating (I cut back to twice a month).
Six weeks ago I was ready to work with her. I'm just really drawn to the connection I developed with the treatment therapist and want to continue to build from that. I need some clarity or advice from someone who has perhaps been through this. I don't know what to do.
Here's my dilemma: I was in residential eating disorder treatment for 3 months, discharged in March. I ended up working with someone higher up in the program and he was/is the most amazing therapist I have ever worked with. I have never worked a therapist that I connected with (in treatment or as an outpatient). He specializes in anxiety and trauma as well as eating disorders. I did amazing work and I credit a lot of that to him.
Prior to discharge I obtained a single case agreement to work with someone outside of my insurance network because of her reputation and my familiarity with her (she was a clinical director of an OP program I attended 4 years ago). She also specializes in anxiety and trauma. When I discharged, I emailed my treatment therapist to give him an update and we had been talking weekly--which was not something I had envisioned when I left. Our conversations were in 30 minute range and one being almost an hour.
A couple of weeks ago I told him something trauma related that he was familiar with, something I did EMDR for. I felt more comfortable telling him than my actual therapist. During this conversation he had pondered if my insurance would do another single case agreement to work with him, since we have the connection I'm not feeling with my current therapist. Well, I researched this after my insurance said no and it was a bit too much. He didn't intend on his suggestion creating a divide and definitely didn't want to be in the way of me working with her. I spent days crying over this and realized that he is getting in the way and told him we should cut back on our communication. He agreed.
In my last conversation with him I inquired if he did private pay as a plan b, in case it doesn't work out with current therapist. He said we would cross that bridge if we got there. I told him I was initially authorized for 10 sessions and that I should know whether or not the current therapist is a good fit or not.
In my mind I have already decided to ask him after my 10th session with her if he will accept me as a client. I feel like he will agree because the only real barrier is his schedule--which can be worked around. The dilemma is that I feel shitty because current therapist sent me an email response today telling me that she has a lot to offer me if I give her a chance. My insurance is not going to be doing any more special favors for me if I stop seeing her and if the treatment therapist doesn't work out. I feel like she doesn't have a chance and I don't know what to do. I am not telling her that treatment therapist accepts private pay or that we are still communicating (I cut back to twice a month).
Six weeks ago I was ready to work with her. I'm just really drawn to the connection I developed with the treatment therapist and want to continue to build from that. I need some clarity or advice from someone who has perhaps been through this. I don't know what to do.