7lonewolf7
New Here
This is my first diary, so I'm not sure of the etiquette or expectations. I'm starting one to help with processing and therapy.
Today was okay. I talked to Andrew and he confirmed for me that even externally I seem like I've given up. I experience every symptom of PTSD, and depending on the amount of stressors, some days are worse than others.
A scary incident happened in April, where I almost lost a loved one, and I blame myself every single day. Every single moment. And since then, I've been more hypervigilant than average and experiencing the worst bouts of depression. The incident put my body in a state of shock, and since then, I've developed an involuntary twich in my right arm and hand that happens everytime I have an anxiety attack, which is about 20x a day.
I'm hoping therapy, and writing journals and diaries like this, help reduce my symptoms. I want to stop filling so ill and barely functioning.
Today was okay. I talked to Andrew and he confirmed for me that even externally I seem like I've given up. I experience every symptom of PTSD, and depending on the amount of stressors, some days are worse than others.
A scary incident happened in April, where I almost lost a loved one, and I blame myself every single day. Every single moment. And since then, I've been more hypervigilant than average and experiencing the worst bouts of depression. The incident put my body in a state of shock, and since then, I've developed an involuntary twich in my right arm and hand that happens everytime I have an anxiety attack, which is about 20x a day.
I'm hoping therapy, and writing journals and diaries like this, help reduce my symptoms. I want to stop filling so ill and barely functioning.