gunnerbunny
New Here
I have been reading a lot of the different threads on this forum and I have to say I am completely scared and so hopeful at the same time. I know each case is unique to the individual and relationship, but I am so afraid that the hubby and I will end up not together or fighting.
I know that it has only been six months since his diagnosis and only about a year and a half since his symptoms started and we do have a really long way to go, but how do you get over these fears?
We have yet to have any fights and he is as open as he can be.(some things he will not share with me, only his therapist and I am kind of glad about that)
Take last night, why is it that he only wants to have really deep discussions right before his Ambien takes him to La La land?(he has trouble sleeping sometimes) I sometimes feel like he does it to drive me insane:eek: (I know that is not why but it sure feels like it)
Last night he tells me his therapist told him he might be close to a break through because he got emotional during their session(which for him is a really big deal), then just feel asleep. This morning he doesn't remember telling me anything(the drugs do that) and I can't ask and it is driving me nuts. Is it bad to want to ask? He really doesn't like to tell me about his therapy, and I usually never push for details, but how can you just tell someone that and just go to sleep.
I think the strangest thing is that I feel angry because he just drops things like that on me and it makes me want to know more and I know he won't tell. Then I feel guilty for feeling angry and I don't want to say anything because I don't want him to think that he can't tell me stuff.
Does this make any sense or am I just rambling?:crazy:
I know that it has only been six months since his diagnosis and only about a year and a half since his symptoms started and we do have a really long way to go, but how do you get over these fears?
We have yet to have any fights and he is as open as he can be.(some things he will not share with me, only his therapist and I am kind of glad about that)
Take last night, why is it that he only wants to have really deep discussions right before his Ambien takes him to La La land?(he has trouble sleeping sometimes) I sometimes feel like he does it to drive me insane:eek: (I know that is not why but it sure feels like it)
Last night he tells me his therapist told him he might be close to a break through because he got emotional during their session(which for him is a really big deal), then just feel asleep. This morning he doesn't remember telling me anything(the drugs do that) and I can't ask and it is driving me nuts. Is it bad to want to ask? He really doesn't like to tell me about his therapy, and I usually never push for details, but how can you just tell someone that and just go to sleep.
I think the strangest thing is that I feel angry because he just drops things like that on me and it makes me want to know more and I know he won't tell. Then I feel guilty for feeling angry and I don't want to say anything because I don't want him to think that he can't tell me stuff.
Does this make any sense or am I just rambling?:crazy: