Abandoning Self

arfie

MyPTSD Pro
i, too, want to know the context. in my own mind, it could apply to anything from control to self-esteem to trust. any place too many places where i am taking myself too seriously.
 

Skywatcher

MyPTSD Pro
We were talking about boundaries. How we have outside and internal boundaries. I think this may be about trust. Trusting myself. Trusting that I can handle things? I tend to ask for extra appointments or reach out to her for help between sessions. We have been shifting away from that. However, if I slip up, I become really scared of her.
 

Defaultxlove

MyPTSD Pro
Scared of her seems significant.

First thought I had was codependency/ not paying enough attention to yourself and needs and if related to boundaries. To set boundaries you really have to show up with your true authentic self. Are you hiding from self?
 

Skywatcher

MyPTSD Pro
Scared of her seems significant.

First thought I had was codependency/ not paying enough attention to yourself and needs and if related to boundaries. To set boundaries you really have to show up with your true authentic self. Are you hiding from self?
I don’t think so? She says that she doesn’t think that I’m afraid of her (that’s transference stuff). However, I’m afraid of my own fear. I do become codependent, which is why we have our boundaries as they are to begin with. She wants me to believe that I can handle and face bad emotions and survive. My go to is dissociation, so there is that. I may even go as far as shielding myself entirely from things, but is that what she even means?
 

Defaultxlove

MyPTSD Pro
She wants me to believe that I can handle and face bad emotions and survive
Yes is she also telling you that since she has known you, you have done that?

She wants you to believe in yourself?

Just thinking here. Anything I say, if it doesn't apply let it fly because I'm just trying to help you my friend.




Im sorry I don't have the correct answer but you are doing some good work here
 

Friday

Moderator
We were talking about boundaries. How we have outside and internal boundaries. I think this may be about trust. Trusting myself. Trusting that I can handle things? I tend to ask for extra appointments or reach out to her for help between sessions. We have been shifting away from that. However, if I slip up, I become really scared of her.
Sounds like beginning to manage “learned helplessness” coupled with abandonment issues. IE instead of giving up, or falling apart, without outside direction/approval/support? Both learning your own capabilities as you are and learning how those capabilities improve over time and with experience. Be the person you want to rescue you.
 
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