Here comes the follow up lol. I’m anxious and messed up because my son is now here underfoot. I feel really guilty about these feelings. But never mind. I’m going to bed and they all can sort it out amongst themselves. I always a wanted my wife all to myself and never any different. She’s leaving me here now in this mess WE made lol. There’s nothing for it but to laugh and I’d better get good at it or I’ll be crying again. WE, on one level at least, are better than ever before. But it’s the kind of love that excludes everything or worse, it wrecks everything around it because neither of us is fit for the hardships of marriage or family life, so we always faked it and it’s wicked in bed. There is a price though for everything. We are paying it. We always paid it. Being happy is the best revenge. But it’s far from perfect.