Abrupt Leaving

[Michelle244]

I have been in therapy for three years now since I was 20 I have complex PTSD from medical and physical aspects as well as having amnesia at the age of 16 and being emotional bullied and abondonment issues. I took a very long time to open up to my therapist and trust him but I was very protective of myself thinking that if I opened up to him he would leave me or something bad would happen to him because I told him to much about me like my previous relationships and now my worst fear has come true after three years of telling someone about my horrific past he has not seen me for more than a month because he is sick and he messaged me saying he doesn't know when he can return to being my therapist so now I am seeing my psychiatrist but it is just not the same and i am getting flashbacks about abondement and feeling like everyone is leaving me and quite depressed I don't know if I can open up again I just can't handle it!

 

[Tellctetni]

I have been in therapy for three years now since I was 20 I have complex PTSD from medical and physical aspects as...

That sounds very painful to go through. Can you message him and ask.

 

[whiteraven]

Wow, I'm sorry to hear this. In some ways, it's more difficult to not know and have to play the waiting game, although I absolutely understand how scary it is to lose a therapist you trust when there is no one else. As @Tellctetni suggested, is there anyway you can get further information from him, like if there is a possibility he will have to terminate or if he definitely is coming back but he just doesn't know when? He may not be able to answer you, since this is a medical situation, but it might be worth asking.