thatonechick
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A former therapist recommended this site sooo... here I am.
I'm filled with rage. It is appalling to me that the majority of the population is extremely unobservant. A toxic trait of mine is expecting others to share the same level of hypervigilance and empathy...when really...most aren't empathetic at all.
Once, when I was attempting to confide in a former boss, someone I thought I could trust, I told her "I can't help when I will be triggered. Or how I will respond to that trigger. And it is embarrassing every single time." She said, "Honestly, we think your triggers are cute."
Excuse me...excuse me? Ha. Hahahaha. This. Right here. is what I mean. Now, all of you kings and queens who are still reading this (thank you, by the way) can understand how frustrated this made me. And still does.
Do any of you ever find yourself wishing that others could experience one of your triggers and the mental and physical effects that come with it? Just once? The fear. Racing heart. Sweating. Rapid breathing. That instant fight, flight, or freeze reaction and then the realization that there isn't really a threat, and a wave of embarrassment folds over. Knowing you panicked for no reason and now all eyes are on you, only to hear whispers of judgment instead of words of compassion and understanding?
Must be nice to have such a stable and structured life that you never even consider what it's like to constantly live on the edge.
Smh.
Thank you for your time. Much love keep fighting
I'm filled with rage. It is appalling to me that the majority of the population is extremely unobservant. A toxic trait of mine is expecting others to share the same level of hypervigilance and empathy...when really...most aren't empathetic at all.
Once, when I was attempting to confide in a former boss, someone I thought I could trust, I told her "I can't help when I will be triggered. Or how I will respond to that trigger. And it is embarrassing every single time." She said, "Honestly, we think your triggers are cute."
Excuse me...excuse me? Ha. Hahahaha. This. Right here. is what I mean. Now, all of you kings and queens who are still reading this (thank you, by the way) can understand how frustrated this made me. And still does.
Do any of you ever find yourself wishing that others could experience one of your triggers and the mental and physical effects that come with it? Just once? The fear. Racing heart. Sweating. Rapid breathing. That instant fight, flight, or freeze reaction and then the realization that there isn't really a threat, and a wave of embarrassment folds over. Knowing you panicked for no reason and now all eyes are on you, only to hear whispers of judgment instead of words of compassion and understanding?
Must be nice to have such a stable and structured life that you never even consider what it's like to constantly live on the edge.
Smh.
Thank you for your time. Much love keep fighting
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