After going through a very difficult few weeks, (It's what drove me here) My husband is a "new man". Last night he was all happy and then trying to be romantic. I was thinking "Oh, HELL NO"
I was just trying to fall asleep and be left alone. He was cuddling and acting like nothing has happened at all. (This man who had a panic attack on the phone with me a day earlier)
Today he has his list, is checking it twice and seems to be on top of his game. He's social on the phone - not dead silence on the line. Things are all milk and honey - and i'm tickled that they are - but then I think - oh shit no - I can't just be all gooey when yesterday was hell and tomorrow probably will be too - judging by the last couple of months. I'm just not into the romance thing. I am hurt and raw from the drama lately.
Then - because it's all a little too surreal - I snap to: "Have you been out of pot over the last few days?" He laughs and says, "Well - yes, but it's all taken care of now (he scored)." "But thats not why I am having a good day - I just enjoyed cuddling with you last night....it was therapeutic..."
Yeah right.
See the addictitive behavior is cunning and baffling they say. Now I know why they want him clean before tackling inpatient PTSD treatment. I think I need to go to Alanon or Naranon.
Is anyone else here dealing with a spouse who is self medicating?
I was just trying to fall asleep and be left alone. He was cuddling and acting like nothing has happened at all. (This man who had a panic attack on the phone with me a day earlier)
Today he has his list, is checking it twice and seems to be on top of his game. He's social on the phone - not dead silence on the line. Things are all milk and honey - and i'm tickled that they are - but then I think - oh shit no - I can't just be all gooey when yesterday was hell and tomorrow probably will be too - judging by the last couple of months. I'm just not into the romance thing. I am hurt and raw from the drama lately.
Then - because it's all a little too surreal - I snap to: "Have you been out of pot over the last few days?" He laughs and says, "Well - yes, but it's all taken care of now (he scored)." "But thats not why I am having a good day - I just enjoyed cuddling with you last night....it was therapeutic..."
Yeah right.
See the addictitive behavior is cunning and baffling they say. Now I know why they want him clean before tackling inpatient PTSD treatment. I think I need to go to Alanon or Naranon.
Is anyone else here dealing with a spouse who is self medicating?