cheddar2000
New Here
Hi All,
I just got out of the hospital after a 5 day stay to get stable. Before going in I was only sleeping 1-2 hours a night for 8 days. I was exhausted. My doc add .5mg Klonopin and I take 600mg of seroquel at night. I am sleeping again. But nightmares are still there.
One of my alters brought home another patient. Luckily my adult children where livid and insisted I send him home. I did and now I realize how I put my whole family at risk. It ended ugly. I will not go into that part.
I am frustrated that a part of me could act independently and foolishly. I am trying very hard to not fight the alters. I am not 100% self aware of everyone. Sometimes it is so hard to go on. I don't know what inside me keeps me going.
I was ready to give up but I couldn't hurt my kids like that. I know some will say it was a blessing. But my life is chaos. If I could only stop fighting and accept this is happening to me maybe I will not be so separate.
Any words of wisdom/help?
I just got out of the hospital after a 5 day stay to get stable. Before going in I was only sleeping 1-2 hours a night for 8 days. I was exhausted. My doc add .5mg Klonopin and I take 600mg of seroquel at night. I am sleeping again. But nightmares are still there.
One of my alters brought home another patient. Luckily my adult children where livid and insisted I send him home. I did and now I realize how I put my whole family at risk. It ended ugly. I will not go into that part.
I am frustrated that a part of me could act independently and foolishly. I am trying very hard to not fight the alters. I am not 100% self aware of everyone. Sometimes it is so hard to go on. I don't know what inside me keeps me going.
I was ready to give up but I couldn't hurt my kids like that. I know some will say it was a blessing. But my life is chaos. If I could only stop fighting and accept this is happening to me maybe I will not be so separate.
Any words of wisdom/help?