No matter where I am I always feel isolated and alone. Even with my immediate family (wife and kids) I never feel like I belong. It's like I'm watching their lives at a distance. I have a hole inside of me, a craving for something that can never be filled or met. Though I am aware of this need I can never really grasp what that need is, it is elusive and painful. I cannot share this with anyone because they never fully understand. Anyway, I just needed an outlet.