As I move forward in therapy and let some of my repressed emotions come out, I am beginning to realize I don’t really know how to feel anger, let alone express it. When I feel anger, I immediately hate myself for feeling it, and tell myself I don’t deserve to feel upset towards anyone or anything. These feelings are mostly centered around my relationship with my mother, who told me time and again that I shouldn’t ever protest or get upset about her behavior because it could have been worse (usually referring to the abuse she endured as a child from her own mother). I am struggling to avoid falling into a flashback shame spiral as a response to my own emotions. Sometimes it feels impossible to separate feelings of anger and feelings of shame because they are so connected in my mind. I try to make progress by fully feeling my emotions but it is creating more problems when I do.