SnowBirch22
Bronze Member
I can button down how I feel & crack jokes all day. But I feel nothing. And if something, it's a very strong sense of anger. People piss me off so much... They're never there when you need them. Or they say they are, & then aren't. As soon as I get my hopes up about a potential friend or someone I think is a good person, they ruin it by doing something shitty. And then there are the ones I think are too good for me & I don't want to bother with my problems. But these are so rare. I know it's not right to be so mad at everyone all the time, & I know I must seem like a horrible person. But I'm isolating myself so much & I'm getting so scared of people letting me down or taking advantage of me that I write people off completely. But at the same time it's so lonely to be surrounded by people & feeling so angry & sad at them all. I know not everyone's the same... But I'm pushing everyone away before anyone can hurt me because in some way, they almost always do. Does anyone else feel the same? How do I get past this?
