whiteraven
Diamond Member
Most days, I get up and drag myself through the day, working during the week from home and often doing some sort of volunteer work and going to school in my off time. Unless I'm engaging with my cats, I am very unhappy. I'm living mostly just to get through life until I die.
Some days, though, I'm a mix of intense, anxiety, anger at everyone, and deeply sad. That usually manifests as frustration with and intolerance for people, a lot of physical tension, and bouts of tears.
Today was a bad day. I'm scheduled to have outpatient surgery in May, and they called me today to tell me I had to pay everything upfront, a week in advance. I've been trying to get a forwarding order from the post office straightened out since October, and I talked to them today and none of our conversations were showing up anywhere (and my mail is still be forwarded elsewhere). My one cat won't eat, my final is due this week in the class I'm taking, and one of the women I volunteer with has been on my back for days about a newsletter I need to get out, but she keeps changing things in it.
The medical stuff is the worst. Today's stuff just triggered all the other issues I've had with the healthcare system, and it just adds to everything else that has been so hard to manage.
Mostly just venting, but would be happy to hear if anyone else struggles with this (and if you have ideas to ease things any).
Some days, though, I'm a mix of intense, anxiety, anger at everyone, and deeply sad. That usually manifests as frustration with and intolerance for people, a lot of physical tension, and bouts of tears.
Today was a bad day. I'm scheduled to have outpatient surgery in May, and they called me today to tell me I had to pay everything upfront, a week in advance. I've been trying to get a forwarding order from the post office straightened out since October, and I talked to them today and none of our conversations were showing up anywhere (and my mail is still be forwarded elsewhere). My one cat won't eat, my final is due this week in the class I'm taking, and one of the women I volunteer with has been on my back for days about a newsletter I need to get out, but she keeps changing things in it.
The medical stuff is the worst. Today's stuff just triggered all the other issues I've had with the healthcare system, and it just adds to everything else that has been so hard to manage.
Mostly just venting, but would be happy to hear if anyone else struggles with this (and if you have ideas to ease things any).