Calmingpeace
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You all I keep having my reacurrent dreams that I’m in the massage parlor again -how when I was about to have a couples massage at first and then out of no where I can’t find my husband and there are three men and the lady asks me to take off my clothes I get nervous throw up on the men and start having a major panic attack because I’m in a foreign country with no help I calmed down a bit but out of the corner of my eye I’m viewing young girls get raped and I just can’t take it.
After that my spouse appears out of no where and I tell him we need to go to the US embassy, but he replied we couldn’t because it could effect his citizenship.
He then tells me that it’s okay and we’ll travel to this town so that things will be okay. At this point I’m scared for my life and the powerful people that he knows, so I follow him and we go to this town called Palomino. In that island i got separated from him once again and I saw a boat with cartel material in it and it terrified me to the point I got numb. So I finally find my spouse and I tell him I need to leave I’m not feeling well. I insisted and then we finally left.
Short story is that I pushed this trauma so deep In because I alone was so isolated from my family or friends and I didn’t know who to trust or if I would get into trouble about this knowledge. So I pushed it down to stay in the Christian marriage.
What brought up these feelings back up is the picture of a child porn that I found on my husbands phone. It was of two girls who one was 9 and the other looked to be around 16. I became disgusted about it. And left the house with our child. I then get arrested because he took a photo of me having one of my moments of remembering the event.
Is there any remedies to help with the experience I had oversees?
Also, is there a way I could protect my children from this type of future events. So that they don’t experience what I went through?
**They are not dreams they are my nightmares from what had happened
After that my spouse appears out of no where and I tell him we need to go to the US embassy, but he replied we couldn’t because it could effect his citizenship.
He then tells me that it’s okay and we’ll travel to this town so that things will be okay. At this point I’m scared for my life and the powerful people that he knows, so I follow him and we go to this town called Palomino. In that island i got separated from him once again and I saw a boat with cartel material in it and it terrified me to the point I got numb. So I finally find my spouse and I tell him I need to leave I’m not feeling well. I insisted and then we finally left.
Short story is that I pushed this trauma so deep In because I alone was so isolated from my family or friends and I didn’t know who to trust or if I would get into trouble about this knowledge. So I pushed it down to stay in the Christian marriage.
What brought up these feelings back up is the picture of a child porn that I found on my husbands phone. It was of two girls who one was 9 and the other looked to be around 16. I became disgusted about it. And left the house with our child. I then get arrested because he took a photo of me having one of my moments of remembering the event.
Is there any remedies to help with the experience I had oversees?
Also, is there a way I could protect my children from this type of future events. So that they don’t experience what I went through?
**They are not dreams they are my nightmares from what had happened
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