I don't really know where or who else to ask for help. I am due to begin cbt very soon, which although I'm hopeful will be of some help, I'm not sure that it can fully alleviate things. It may be that I will also need to speak with a psychologist after receiving the therapy.
I've had a long term depression and anxiety which resulted from a badly performed rhinoplasty I underwent abroad at the age of 18. I am now 25 years old.
Although I went in feeling quite unhappy and insecure with the size of my original nose, I came out feeling more upset in a different way; with an asymmetrical, deformed shape nose, which brought a host of psychological complications.
I was not really prepared for the psychological and emotional impact it would have, as I had no concept before of feeling this way, until after it had happened.
I think a key factor for it having had such an impact is that I am quite a visual person. I like art, and pay attention to details, as well as being highly sensitive. I get very bothered when I see that its not straight, my mind is locked onto it and I find myself constantly responding to it and being stuck in a state of distress.
This occurs for most hours during the day and I can't relax or break away enough to properly get things done or to make clear decisions. I've been stuck this way ever since and feel that my spirit has been depleted.
I am most concerned that is altering my life from taking its natural path, has consumed many years and ultimately stopping me from living truly to myself.
To avoid making my entry very long I will write some keyword symptoms in a list from what I've been experiencing over the last seven years.
Stunted personal development, stunted social development, struggle to be independent, holding back true personality and behaviour, obscured sense of self identity, isolation for 6 years, difficulty in relationships, state of denial, tearful everyday, fallen behind, life on hold.
I've seen some specialist rhinoplasty surgeons in London. They have suggested a revision rhinoplasty to make it more natural and straight, costing between £5000-£8000. However, there are risks and I would not be mentally strong enough for a further disappointing result.
I wonder if there is anyone who can relate in any way to my case, or have any advice for what could help. I would be extremely grateful for anything that could help.
I've had a long term depression and anxiety which resulted from a badly performed rhinoplasty I underwent abroad at the age of 18. I am now 25 years old.
Although I went in feeling quite unhappy and insecure with the size of my original nose, I came out feeling more upset in a different way; with an asymmetrical, deformed shape nose, which brought a host of psychological complications.
I was not really prepared for the psychological and emotional impact it would have, as I had no concept before of feeling this way, until after it had happened.
I think a key factor for it having had such an impact is that I am quite a visual person. I like art, and pay attention to details, as well as being highly sensitive. I get very bothered when I see that its not straight, my mind is locked onto it and I find myself constantly responding to it and being stuck in a state of distress.
This occurs for most hours during the day and I can't relax or break away enough to properly get things done or to make clear decisions. I've been stuck this way ever since and feel that my spirit has been depleted.
I am most concerned that is altering my life from taking its natural path, has consumed many years and ultimately stopping me from living truly to myself.
To avoid making my entry very long I will write some keyword symptoms in a list from what I've been experiencing over the last seven years.
Stunted personal development, stunted social development, struggle to be independent, holding back true personality and behaviour, obscured sense of self identity, isolation for 6 years, difficulty in relationships, state of denial, tearful everyday, fallen behind, life on hold.
I've seen some specialist rhinoplasty surgeons in London. They have suggested a revision rhinoplasty to make it more natural and straight, costing between £5000-£8000. However, there are risks and I would not be mentally strong enough for a further disappointing result.
I wonder if there is anyone who can relate in any way to my case, or have any advice for what could help. I would be extremely grateful for anything that could help.