Uggghhhhhh..... I'd gone a long time, at least 4-5 months without self-harming and found myself in a terrible depression the other night during which it felt like the only means of relief. In therapy, and not looking forward to owning up to it at my next session. The therapist asks every time whether or not I've done it. I don't want to admit it, but I also don't think lying is helpful and I won't do that. I feel so ashamed for some reason. Maybe because I thought I should have been past this. Can anyone relate?