Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
I’m not anorexic because I don’t care about what my body looks like—for the most part—don’t care if I’m fat or thin.
But ever since starting recovery almost a year ago I find it hard to keep eating. I often avoid eating until late in the day then sometimes binge or just eat normal.
T suggested that not eating is just a bad habit. I feel some emotions and then I don’t eat. Similar to the familiarity of the inner critic and self-sabotage.
I eat enough to keep from causing myself bodily damage—so far. Sometimes I wonder what the effects of only drinking coffee and beer and water and vitamins does to a person.
I have mentioned this to T and she is not concerned.
I know how to eat, I just don’t want to. I’m not seeking validation, because I don’t think it’s right to avoid eating. Am I bragging? Certainly not! Am I looking for support? Maybe? I’m wondering if others are going through anything similar? I’m wondering if others experienced something similar and it went away or if they had to directly address it? I know that it comes and goes... some days I can eat without thinking about it and other days I don’t don’t don’t want to consume anything other than coffee and beer. Today is one of those days.
But ever since starting recovery almost a year ago I find it hard to keep eating. I often avoid eating until late in the day then sometimes binge or just eat normal.
T suggested that not eating is just a bad habit. I feel some emotions and then I don’t eat. Similar to the familiarity of the inner critic and self-sabotage.
I eat enough to keep from causing myself bodily damage—so far. Sometimes I wonder what the effects of only drinking coffee and beer and water and vitamins does to a person.
I have mentioned this to T and she is not concerned.
I know how to eat, I just don’t want to. I’m not seeking validation, because I don’t think it’s right to avoid eating. Am I bragging? Certainly not! Am I looking for support? Maybe? I’m wondering if others are going through anything similar? I’m wondering if others experienced something similar and it went away or if they had to directly address it? I know that it comes and goes... some days I can eat without thinking about it and other days I don’t don’t don’t want to consume anything other than coffee and beer. Today is one of those days.