Hey. It feels weird to post again. I just got home from the hospital yesterday. I was admittted on December 2 because I contracted an infection after surgery. I was very sick and in a tremendous amount of pain, so I'm so relieved to be feeling somewhat normal again. I'm barely well enough to be discharged, but there is a hospital worker's strike here now, so all patients who are not absolutely dying were sent home. Gotta love the Canadian Health Care System. Bleah.
So I'm still recovering. I'm on painkillers, very tired and sleeping a lot. I lost 12 pounds, which means I now weigh a grand total of 92 pounds (about 42 kg)!!! I am short but still it's a pretty low weight for me, I really need to gain now. My uncle said if I lose any more weight they won't be able to find me. :rolleyes: He and my aunt are here now, staying with me until I get better. They might even be here for Christmas. It has been really good for me having them here, I don't know how I would have fared alone. I don't deserve them though. I've had some really insane fights with my uncle, and been generally quite rotten and bitchy. I'm apologizing for my behaviour daily. I feel bad that they have to put up with me.
I feel especially bad because I just learned that my uncle is going to Afghanistan in January! If they had just told me that earlier, I would have tried much, much harder to be pleasant. I'm terrified about him going there. I don't want him to get hurt. :crybaby:
Close to 40 Canadian soldiers were killed in Afghanistan this year. He's not just a regular soldier, he's older and higher in rank but anyone can get killed!! Actually I don't know how I'm going to handle it when he goes. I thought I was finished forever with the whole deployment thing after my father's death, and I vowed never to marry someone in the military. I'm probably going to be crying and freaking out the whole time he's gone. I can write him letters, but still I feel pretty horrible. At least he's retiring from the military soon after, but I wish he could just retire NOW. I hate war.
Anyways just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive. I'm resting and I'm not sure how much I will feel like posting. Hope you are all doing well.
So I'm still recovering. I'm on painkillers, very tired and sleeping a lot. I lost 12 pounds, which means I now weigh a grand total of 92 pounds (about 42 kg)!!! I am short but still it's a pretty low weight for me, I really need to gain now. My uncle said if I lose any more weight they won't be able to find me. :rolleyes: He and my aunt are here now, staying with me until I get better. They might even be here for Christmas. It has been really good for me having them here, I don't know how I would have fared alone. I don't deserve them though. I've had some really insane fights with my uncle, and been generally quite rotten and bitchy. I'm apologizing for my behaviour daily. I feel bad that they have to put up with me.
I feel especially bad because I just learned that my uncle is going to Afghanistan in January! If they had just told me that earlier, I would have tried much, much harder to be pleasant. I'm terrified about him going there. I don't want him to get hurt. :crybaby:
Close to 40 Canadian soldiers were killed in Afghanistan this year. He's not just a regular soldier, he's older and higher in rank but anyone can get killed!! Actually I don't know how I'm going to handle it when he goes. I thought I was finished forever with the whole deployment thing after my father's death, and I vowed never to marry someone in the military. I'm probably going to be crying and freaking out the whole time he's gone. I can write him letters, but still I feel pretty horrible. At least he's retiring from the military soon after, but I wish he could just retire NOW. I hate war.
Anyways just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive. I'm resting and I'm not sure how much I will feel like posting. Hope you are all doing well.