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Bad Relationship Experience - I Was Used And Can't Get Over It

Discussion in 'Introductions' started by AZPilot, Jun 13, 2007.

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  1. AZPilot

    AZPilot New Member

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    Hello,

    First off, I joined this forum for a few reasons:

    1. I felt I needed support from people outside of my current group of friends and family.
    2. I felt I needed support from ordinary individuals. Counseling did not seem to be an option, partly due to occupational reasons, among other things.
    3. I felt that if I did not attempt to help myself more than I already have tried, things would never get better.

    Although I haven't been "officially" diagnosed with PTSD, I've read up on it enough lately that I seem to fit a few of the criteria.

    My shortened story:

    About a year and a half ago, I told a friend of mine how strongly I felt for her over the previous year knowing her, and received a reaction that I still can't make any sense of. The night it happened, I learned she didn't feel the same way about me, and she openly admitted to using me physically. After I became upset, she slapped me and told me to "snap out of it." The following day (I picked her up from her town to visit with me for the weekend) I asked her a few questions on the way back to her place to make some kind of understanding out of everything...mostly "why?" questions to which I hardly got an answer - mostly just sarcasm. The whole ordeal ended sharply with her request that I don't contact her again.

    Perhaps I was too naiive...except that I felt I had to tell her how I felt about her because she seemed like "the one" and I was afraid that she might "slip away."

    Now, I have struggled to maintain a relationship where I can feel anything for the other person. Along with this is the guilt of dating someone who I know is better person, yet I can't get over the girl from way-back-when. Occasionally she shows up in my dreams. Sometimes I think I see someone that "could be" her, or simply looks like her in public. No matter how hard I try to distract myself, eventually an idle moment causes me to think about her again. I've stayed awake numerous nights, with thoughts about what happened reeling through my head. I didn't consider myself to have a more serious problem until recently, deciding that longer than a year was more than plenty to get over someone.

    I still cannot understand why this has taken so long for me, and I hope that discussing with others who have had similar experiences on this forum might help me to recover my ability of having a normal relationship, and learn to trust and love someone else.
     
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  3. permban0077

    permban0077 Policy Enforcement Banned

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    From what you describe is a far cry from PTSD. Maybe broken hearted and a bit obsessive in nature but not PTSD. This link may help. [DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/misc.php?do=page&template=forms[/DLMURL]
     
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