I think the same exact things myself. I could have prevented all of this. I could have been free all those years. My life would have been a whole lot better, even if I still had PTSD, which I wouldn't have had either of course if I bailed out soon enough, or if I left the first time he hit me.I should have never stuck it out for as long as I did nor should I have issues from it. I should have known better.