Even after some of the other awful stuff that happened, that to me was always the worst. I get a lot of anxiety and panic constantly wondering if a child is being abused. I know some people on here dont see spanking as abuse but to me I cant see a parent forcing a child to be half naked to be smacked could be anything but abuse. It's made me such a nervous person and terrified of nuidty. I dont know how to stop thinking about it and wondering if my dad was actually doing it for other reasons.