I guess I just need to vent a little.
Had my weekly appt with the doctor. I felt that I was starting to straighten some stuff out. Then he pulls out a word to describe my childhood abuser that completely pisses me off. I got up and left. He called my uncle "beloved". Can you imagine calling someone who sexually molested you for so long, "beloved"?????
I do blame myself for the pedophile's actions. I was little and in desperate need of attention-but to refer to this person as "beloved"!!!!!!!! I just can't deal with that thought!
nor
Had my weekly appt with the doctor. I felt that I was starting to straighten some stuff out. Then he pulls out a word to describe my childhood abuser that completely pisses me off. I got up and left. He called my uncle "beloved". Can you imagine calling someone who sexually molested you for so long, "beloved"?????
I do blame myself for the pedophile's actions. I was little and in desperate need of attention-but to refer to this person as "beloved"!!!!!!!! I just can't deal with that thought!
nor