Beyond Words - Seeking Relief from Overwhelming Mental Turmoil

[Punky143]

There's so much spinning and spinning around in our head right now that we go numb. Overwhelmed by anything and anyone. I'm convinced the days we cry before work is because my parts don't want to. It's been a struggle lately and I'm trying to do different things to help and cry and cry wishing for us
to go away..

 

[arfie]

would it help you to know that i envy your ability to cry? the few times i have been able to cry in my long life have brought such tremendous cathartic relief that i have come to believe that tears are a shower for the soul. wish i could shower my soul more often. just wishing. . .

 

[Liljulz67]

There's so much spinning and spinning around in our head right now that we go numb. Overwhelmed by anything and anyone. I'm convinced the days we cry before work is because my parts don't want to. It's been a struggle lately and I'm trying to do different things to help and cry and cry wishing for us
to go away..

Crying is very Therapeutic for me.i was always told not to cry and you are doing the right thing.everytime I cry I feel relief from my stress and anxiety. Hang in there,we are all here doing the best we can and we care.

 

[Friday]

It's been a struggle lately and I'm trying to do different things to help

Which different things are helping? Any gaps that need filling, or basics (StressCup, Self Care, etc.) that need shoring up?

 

[caroline_13]

would it help you to know that i envy your ability to cry? the few times i have been able to cry in my long life have brought such tremendous cathartic relief that i have come to believe that tears are a shower for the soul. wish i could shower my soul more often. just wishing. . .

That is beautiful.

 

[Punky143]

I don't necessarily feel better after crying. The parts are not working together and are all feeling different things or snippets of past memories, agitated all in all, overwhelmed. Etc: Trying to be more present during sessions but all that does is make us cry. It's not my t's fault, it's years and years of learned ineffective behaviors, we are just starting on the harder never been spoken stuff and my t is attentive, nice, the tone of her voices can be calming and empathetic.
It's trying to teach my parts that I'm in charge and they are making improvement but one step forward and 5 back.
I feel like I don't have a lot of time to devote to myself because I struggle to work full time, my daughter has practice or game with travel time and before I know it, the night is over. I don't know how I much longer I can put on this facade to protect myself from the terrible stigma around mental health. It exists everywhere and hospitalization in our state makes issues worse ( if a bed is available or sit in the ER for 2+ weeks waiting) never going to that place again. It's just so sad. Life can be deeply sad and isolative.

 

[Liljulz67]

I understand you.very much feel alot like this.so,so sorry.

 

[caroline_13]

I don't necessarily feel better after crying.

We can't all be water signs.

Yes, life can be deeply isolative.