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Charbella
I was sexually abused by lots from 5-17 how does one somehow believe it wasn’t their fault? I mean common denominator and all. How do that many men know they can have that power if I’m not doing something to cause it? Some were family, but not the same side of the family, some were neighbors, friends of the family. One went on for more than 4 years so obviously I’ve got no one to blame but myself for that one.
My T keeps saying its not my fault but also seems to think it happened for a reason, unfortunately the only ones I can come up with I definitely can’t say. How does a kid get to be so needy they let something like this happen?
People say spend time around kids and you’ll see there wasn’t anything you could’ve done. I teach 9-10 year olds and I agree THEY couldn’t possibly have done anything to bring it on themselves, and yet I don’t see it the same way for me. Partly because of the time factor and partly because I was a pretty mature kid, I babysat all summer starting when I was 10. I spent a lot of nights and weekends babysitting an infant. I learned to cook at about the same age and did dinner at least once a week. How do you see this kid who is responsible for other people’s kids and say she wasn’t responsible for herself?
Can the memories ever be put away?
My T keeps saying its not my fault but also seems to think it happened for a reason, unfortunately the only ones I can come up with I definitely can’t say. How does a kid get to be so needy they let something like this happen?
People say spend time around kids and you’ll see there wasn’t anything you could’ve done. I teach 9-10 year olds and I agree THEY couldn’t possibly have done anything to bring it on themselves, and yet I don’t see it the same way for me. Partly because of the time factor and partly because I was a pretty mature kid, I babysat all summer starting when I was 10. I spent a lot of nights and weekends babysitting an infant. I learned to cook at about the same age and did dinner at least once a week. How do you see this kid who is responsible for other people’s kids and say she wasn’t responsible for herself?
Can the memories ever be put away?