Muttly
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I could use both practical advice and support I guess. (sorry for asking). The brief summary - I'm a transgender man. I moved to Missouri about 5 weeks ago from a much more liberal state. I knew it was a risk, but the town I moved to is a pretty liberal town. And I have moved in with my boyfriend who owns a house here so in many ways it's made life better. A few days ago the attorney general here announced an emergency ruling regarding getting any kind of transgender related medical care. It is far stricter than anything that's gone before. The biggest piece for me, is "any psychiatric symptoms from existing mental health comorbidities of the patient have been treated and resolved” So effectively, unless I'm cured of PTSD and other mental health issues I am barred from treatment.
From a practical point, I don't know what to do. I haven't managed to get a license in this state yet because of stupid roadblocks. My boyfriend suggest maybe I don't. Maybe we pretend I still live in another state and see if my doctor there can work with me virtually. I had registered to vote and mailed it in, but it bounced back but now I don't know if I should resend it. But then, not voting seems wrong as I can't be part of change. My boyfriend says we can move (he's amazing) but I just got here and it seems to early to jump to that. And I don't think my mental health will do well with another move so soon. Then again my mental health has taken a huge nose dive in the past few days. Waiting to see how things fall out from this makes a certain amount of sense, but then advocacy groups are saying if you haven't established care with a doctor yet, for trans issues you should do it before the 27th when the ruling comes into effect. I don't have a doctor or medical insurance yet. (I did just start with a therapist).
For the first time in quite a while I'm getting regular suicidal thoughts. I am also suddenly flaring with other PTSD symptoms. And I have this reframe running through my head, which is stupid but this voice keeps saying, "not wanted". I have never understood the level of hate and fear people can have for others. I am holding onto my boyfriends words. His first offer was that we could move. I've *never* had anyone in my life who was willing to do something like that for me. I just felt like I was getting established here. Starting to settle in, and now it feels like turmoil and risk and uncertainty. Sorry, probably stupidly dramatic.
From a practical point, I don't know what to do. I haven't managed to get a license in this state yet because of stupid roadblocks. My boyfriend suggest maybe I don't. Maybe we pretend I still live in another state and see if my doctor there can work with me virtually. I had registered to vote and mailed it in, but it bounced back but now I don't know if I should resend it. But then, not voting seems wrong as I can't be part of change. My boyfriend says we can move (he's amazing) but I just got here and it seems to early to jump to that. And I don't think my mental health will do well with another move so soon. Then again my mental health has taken a huge nose dive in the past few days. Waiting to see how things fall out from this makes a certain amount of sense, but then advocacy groups are saying if you haven't established care with a doctor yet, for trans issues you should do it before the 27th when the ruling comes into effect. I don't have a doctor or medical insurance yet. (I did just start with a therapist).
For the first time in quite a while I'm getting regular suicidal thoughts. I am also suddenly flaring with other PTSD symptoms. And I have this reframe running through my head, which is stupid but this voice keeps saying, "not wanted". I have never understood the level of hate and fear people can have for others. I am holding onto my boyfriends words. His first offer was that we could move. I've *never* had anyone in my life who was willing to do something like that for me. I just felt like I was getting established here. Starting to settle in, and now it feels like turmoil and risk and uncertainty. Sorry, probably stupidly dramatic.