I wonder if folks prefer one pain of reaction to PTSD over another, provided you could have only one of them and I know in reality it is hard and they go hand by hand.
I am coming to the realization that my body is the ultimate decider and stronger than my mind but obviously both got hit really hard (hit in the metaphorical sense of the word).
The longer I am in my journey of healing, the more I find I would prefer body pain to the mind pain but still need the link to the mind to "hear" the body if this makes sense.
The body pain seems more true to me where the mind pain gets confused in perspectives of time, others, ideas, symptoms, and even "hearing" my body.
For example, getting hot means (hot headed) either angry or boundary crossed or along the same lines. Feeling shame could mean, I am taking the perspective of another and looking back at myself pointing fingers! etc etc
I know this may sound splitting hairs but this is the result of extreme self examination process.
I am coming to the realization that my body is the ultimate decider and stronger than my mind but obviously both got hit really hard (hit in the metaphorical sense of the word).
The longer I am in my journey of healing, the more I find I would prefer body pain to the mind pain but still need the link to the mind to "hear" the body if this makes sense.
The body pain seems more true to me where the mind pain gets confused in perspectives of time, others, ideas, symptoms, and even "hearing" my body.
For example, getting hot means (hot headed) either angry or boundary crossed or along the same lines. Feeling shame could mean, I am taking the perspective of another and looking back at myself pointing fingers! etc etc
I know this may sound splitting hairs but this is the result of extreme self examination process.