I posted my introduction yesterday to this forum. Since then, I had a wonderful breakthrough regarding flying in an airplane to go to our family reunion in July. I was feeling very trapped and angry because I was feeling like I could not escape. I had tried to tell my father earlier this year I did not think I could deal with the stress of getting on an airplane and a family reunion while dealing with an ugly divorce. He dismissed me. Over the past few months, I have become more and more angry feeling trapped and very frightened (I always have to feel I have a safe "exit" from anything). Yesterday, I called my dad and said, "Dad, I need to hear from you that you love me and will still love me if I cannot get on the plane. It doesn't mean I'm not coming, but I need to hear you say it." He did, and was really great about it. He then proceeded to tease me and tell me that he didn't want me to come (a little reverse psychology humor). We laughed and I told him, just for that, I was coming for a month!
I feel so much better! I have to say that in just the 24 hours since I found this forum, I feel new hope. I have felt so alone with the strange/irrational feelings and thoughts I have. The anger, fear, since of hopelessness, the daily anxiety, and not understanding why sometimes I am fine, and other times I freak out. Thank you to the owners of this forum.
I feel so much better! I have to say that in just the 24 hours since I found this forum, I feel new hope. I have felt so alone with the strange/irrational feelings and thoughts I have. The anger, fear, since of hopelessness, the daily anxiety, and not understanding why sometimes I am fine, and other times I freak out. Thank you to the owners of this forum.
